Idk what to do
Living life these days, especially in new orleans, no jobs, no money, no hope, literally just makes me want to end it all. As a “youngin” whose been trying but feels no hope for any sort of future, and doesn’t wanna get dragged further and further down until i’m the next homeless person on the street at 50 that “must not have tried in life and must have used drugs”, it feels like i either have to just let go of morals and do sex work….go ahead and give up anything i wanted for myself in life, which at that point how is life worth living, or go into military and basically die for a country i hate. But as i sit here after being hit 3x in a month, debate my 6th tire purchase in the last 6 months, and watch as influencers get rich while i sit and clamor on indeed and hiring cafe hoping i can finally get an opportunity just to pay down debt and college loans…i start to wonder if just ending it all really would be easier than the pain of wanting life to change but not being able to 🙃 does anyone else just feel so…..hopeless…and don’t give me wrong, This isn’t a suicide note, but when it gets to a point where living seems harder than dying well…then what.