Eight Months of Home Hospice: "For You and For Me"
My mom passed after 8 months of home hospice care. I stayed by her side the whole time changing sheets, holding her through the pain, and giving her what strength I had. This poem came from those hard days and nights. I just wanted to share it.
"For You and For Me"
Hey Mom, I miss you, and I wish I could’ve fixed you, The weight of your absence is starting to hit. Now that you’re gone, I can’t help but wonder, If I missed a moment or failed just a bit. Eight months I held the watch by your side, I miss changing your sheets and the things I didn’t want to try. I miss us talking of all you’d like to see, Not realizing those dreams would never come to be. I gave you my strength when your pain came like the tide, Could I have fixed you if I had more time? I can still hear you calling my name While the guilt whispers loud, wasn't it making me go insane? Yet I stayed through the nights, exhausted and sore, I just figured you'd always be there when I opened my door, Watching the kids love you, sickness ignored I couldn’t change tomorrow or settle the score. I couldn’t change fate or make the pain flee, But I held you in love not just for you, but for me. Rest now, dear Mom, where the suffering ends, In whatever comes after, where time finally bends.