PARENTS CRISIS
Okay so I am having a crisis where I dont hate my parents but i dont like my parents either, but I hate what they do and sometimes I love them as well
I love my parents because they keep doing sweet things for me and they sacrifice a lot for me, for example they let me choose where I wanna go for dinner even tho they want something else, they let me go out with my friends, they dont scream at me much and as an Indian teenager this will come as a surprise but they dont slap me or abuse me either and j know that's bare minimum but I just have this cool bond with my parents that most kids dont
Then there are the times I dont like them at all but I get where they're coming from j mean I am a growing teenager I am going to have hormones and stuff and I am going to like boys, there was this guy who was like a year or 2 older than me and we made out quite a lot and we kinda flirted on texts and my parents got super pissed they texted him to back off and honestly as an Indian parent I get that but j just really want you live my life a little bit. I am going to be honest I am not a person who believes in true love so I just wanted to feel like what it was to date and to be in a relationship and to kiss a guy. The first guy I made out with was a very close friend of mine which was why I was okay with him being my first kiss he would never ever break my heart so we had the whole fwb thing and my parents found out and they were livid, it's been a year now and me and my ex fwb now are still talking.
Further on they keep on telling me to do these little things they could very much EASILY do like if I am sitting in the living room and my mom is in her room then she'll call me just to tell me to keep her breakfast plate or her tea cup in the kitchen. And she will do this a 100 times in a day. Then on top of that when I say no to ONE thing just ONE THING she'll make a huge deal out of it by saying you never do anything for me and stuff and it pisses me off soooo much like bitch what the fuck.
Then there is the whole you dont study thing. They're like after me sitting on my head telling me to study I am in high school for Christ's sake I am 100% sure i can manage my studying and can WORRY about it myself, it gets maddening after a certain point of time.
My dad is even more annoying everytime we are alone he will talk about the things j will never understand and how immature I am and will list out all my bad qualities, he btw will never help me improve just tell me that he will help me and forget about that the next day and when I tell him about it he says he is busy. When j tell him about why I have these problems or try to defend myself he calls it illogical ways I am using just to defend my argument and honestly it pisses me the fuck off.
But at the end of the day I dont hate them maybe because they make me happy too. They buy me what I want, they love me a lot and I get that they care about me as well and they're doing this cause they care about me but it doesn't stop my heart from being soo mad and disappointed even though j understand their view.