Why don't i find other people's jokes funny, or their personal stories interesting? Even if i do, it's like I'm unable to express that.
I love comedy, especially improv and cracking jokes back and forth with others. However for some reason i rarely find anyone else's jokes funny. Maybe other people can just fake laugh well. But i feel like a douche when someone is telling me a joke and I just stone face the whole thing. It either has to be way out there and incredibly obscure enough, or a completely serious situation where you shouldn't laugh. That i will then actually laugh.
The same for personal stories people tell me. Everyone is always talking to me about their lives. The good, bad and the ugly. Most of them feel like the "damn that's crazy" kind of stories. I want to be able to give a genuine or actual reaction because sometimes i truly am interested. But i never really do.
I guess maybe I've just been masking really hard. Think I've grown more quiet as i got older because me being myself used to always get me into trouble. Like I've lost the ability or I've become afraid to actually express myself other than through joking. Anyone else feel similar to this?