u/Prudent-Chicken4467

im very lost, can someone tell me what to do? i’ve known i was gay my entire life and i’m still a teenager, baptised as a jw even though i goon to gay videos. i was forced / coerced to get baptised since it’s too dangerous to come out and no doesn’t really feel like an option here?? but a part of me thought baptism would make things easier haha. it’s taken a toll on me mentally: i’m diagnosed with ocd-scrupulosity and anorexia noversa i’m trying very hard to keep everything wrong with me a secret, i just want to know if there’s anyone whose similar to me since this is pretty lonley LOL i can’t leave or come out ill be kicked out and i have no money literally