for all that this has taken from me, i enjoy my independence as much as possible! what are some solo things you enjoy doing and why? and if you dont do solo outings, what outings in general do you like? i need some ideas :) i used to like going to the movies by myself. i need to start that back up again.
that seems like a really loaded question so i just want to say, im in a good headspace. im 23. im better at talking than i was a long time ago. but i cant get a hold of myself. i self sabotage things. i cant get out of my comfort zone. i dont know what i want. i dont know how to continue friendships. thinking everyone hates me- i dont know how to change my mindset. i thought it would be better by now but its even worse. theres so much i want to do but i feel like im not worthy enough to even attempt things anymore. like i built this safety bubble around me. like ive spent so long hiding myself i dont even know how to find myself let alone drag myself out of wherever it is i am. i need someone to understand. all those habits stick and i cannot get unstuck.