I can’t stand feeling my baby move
I am almost 37 weeks with a breech baby who hasn’t changed positions once since her first ultrasound. Her head is under my right rib and her feet and hands are constantly kicking my side. Because she hasn’t moved position she constantly kicks the same spots and I am SO SORE. It literally feels like I am bruised from the inside.
I feel so guilty, but I literally cannot stand the feeling of her movements anymore. She NEVER stops moving. It doesn’t matter if I’m standing up laying down sitting down. I only get a few moments of peace a day and even then my stomach is so heavy, I feel so defeated and out of body.
I have a scheduled C-section in two weeks, but I’m losing my mind and time is going by so slow. I tell people about how the movements hurt me but they just laugh and talk about how cute that is and what a blessing is to be pregnant.
But I feel like I’m in a body horror film 😭😭😭 I always thought I wanted at least two kids, but I genuinely do not think I can go through nine months of pregnancy again.
I know there’s nothing I can do at this point but wait it out but I really just had to vent.