Could this be alter/tulpa communication?
Hello all! So I have been questioning for around half a year now if I(we) might be a system. In order to help differentiate a bit and get a better understanding about my situation, I thought about using techniques from the tulpamancy community to facilitate communication.
What confuses me is the following: It is very easy for me to imagine a conversation with "myself" to the point of me asking a question and "the other"(?) almost immediately responding. Unfortunately I heavily struggle to find out if these responses truly come from a tulpa or an alter of some sorts or if I am really good at improvising these internal conversations. Whats makes it even more confusing is that I dont feel like "the other" can really think on their own about more complex issues, like everything comes to a halt once asking a more involved question, similar to a lagging computer being under too much load.
Aside from these forced conversations I also had moments where it felt like someone else from inside was projecting sudden thoughts into my brain, one being "we are many and we have strong opinions" and the other being literally an educational hint adressed to me, saying that there are "others in the background holding everything together." With made these moments stood out is the lack of forcing anything, the latter comment came up when I was casually thinking about something I learned from therapy and this other part went in an hijacked my thinking voice to educate me about our(?) situation. Both situations described in this paragraph had a certain "otherness" in common which is lacking from the "forced" conversations I can casually whip up with myself.
My theory is that I might be a system already and only using tulpamancy as the means to prove myself right. Thanks for bearing with my ramblings.