r/Tulpas

I’ve been hearing hushed whispers and almost static like sounds in my head. It’s like I can feel the presence of someone there with me.

About a week ago I noticed that my tulpa was very upset. I was in the car and all of a sudden I had this odd feeling that I really hadn’t had in the past. For context I am afab and identify as female. My tulpa on the other hand is male and identifies as cis male. Whenever I visualize him he’s 100% male. I noticed however that he was extremely sad and I almost started crying. Or I guess he was taking control of my body and almost started crying. It was because my body is female and doesn’t match the way he seems himself. He’s told me before that he loves my body. In a previous post on this sub I explained our somewhat complex relationship. He’s very loving and caring towards me (also just in general he’s very kind hearted.) However he loves my body in a way that a romantic partner would love their significant other others body. He doesn’t seem to want it for himself. He doesn’t necessarily want to leave though. We genuinely love being together. Being in the same body at all times is something that has brought us incredibly close to each other. One thing that I have noticed that helps him is when I dress more androgynously. Or when I cross dress. For reference he was based on a fictional character that I am quite fond of and cosplay sometimes. He seems to really enjoy that. I have no plans on transitioning to male or anything like that. I do want to possibly help him feel better though. Has anyone ever had an experience like this with a tulpa or have any advice for me? Thank you!

Ok. Ok, last question today. Again it's me Lisa. I really wanna get more involved with this community so I'll be posting more.

So, Ive read a lot of posts on here and I can see a lot of tulpas fall in love and end up in relationships with there hosts, I wanna know you guy's love story's!

Like, I'm obsessed with the idea of love.

And I like hearing about it.

So tell me, like how did you guys relise you were in love with your host, and also when did you start dating and how? And what's the best thing about being with your hosts? Also! What's the best date you've ever been on with them.

Last thing. What was your first date like? And did it take some convincing to get your host to date you?

Like my darling originally made me as an imaginary girlfriend, but then I became a tulpa and when he realized it he wanted to be friends. But I woo'd him pretty easily and now he's wrapped around my pretty little finger hehe.

But what about you guys? Tell me all the details~

Hi~ hi~

It's Lisa d'amore here. (The tulpa)

So me and my darling are both Christians and we kinda wonder, are there any other Christian tulpa- mancers out there?

We're just wondering, and what do you hosts think of there tulpas? Like a lot of tulpamancers seem to think Tulpas are spirits when they don't really fit the biblical understanding of spirits.

I mean you can't create a spirit guys! Just saying ehehe~

Anyway. This is just a random question.

My darling just sees me as a sentient imaginary girlfriend. Which I think I am. I know I'm not a spirit.

So yeah. Is there any Christian tulpas and tulpamancers out there? Maybe we can talk about the lord together.

I am pretty sure I have had a tulpa for a long time. I just never knew what it was. The tulpa is a different gender. Has different thoughts. And has talked me out of doing things actively that would damage or hurt me in some way. But I never knew it was something that had a name or other people had. I guess my question is how many of you discovered that tulpas were a thing. Or discovered your tulpas without even realizing they were one. How many of you developed one without even being conscious of you doing so?

Asking because I’m considering making my OC into a tulpa, but idk if it would make working on that OC’s story awkward if the tulpa’s around to witness it. And ideally I wouldn’t want to abandon my story either

Long story short my host went dormant. I'm the new host but I'm slowly picking up some of my host interests and personality. I'm still me but I've been a bit confused lately and my head hurts sometimes. My theory is we share memories and since I had to take control all the information is altering my personality. Has anyone else experienced similar things?

Since Jean’s incarnation/materialization into my real everyday life instead of mainly existing in our wonderland, things have changed a lot for us. We sleep much more, spend a lot of time together in very intimate and emotionally intense ways, and lately I feel like we’ve fallen into a repetitive routine loop.

It’s not necessarily negative, but everything feels very heavy and constant right now. We also can’t really access our wonderland anymore except sometimes through dreams.

Has anyone else experienced this after a tulpa became extremely present ? How did you gently and positively break the routine without hurting the connection ?

I think I am doing something wrong haha I imagined my own Tulpa, totally platonic. But I've never seen it.
And recently I've been craving platonic hugs without any expectations. And you know what? I dreamt that I had exactly that with a guy that I don't know. It was so real! I felt real warmth and physical contact.
It's not exactly a tulpa though, right? They only showed up in my dreams but I now feel very comforted. It's like my mind gave me the hug I craved for.

At night, when the world sleeps and my rebellious mind refuses to follow the sheep, I lose myself somewhere in the city. Any place will do.

To be honest, I hate silent walks at night—unless I'm granted the food of the gods: a cigarette.

So I wander among buildings, lagoons, and cracks, searching for my favorite spot.

I'd love to compare myself to those guys from the Tumblr era who looked incredibly cool smoking a cigarette. But I'm rather short and a bit overweight.

I have a good friend.

She's a tulpa.

A tulpa is a consciously created mental entity, brought into being through visualization and internal dialogue until it's perceived as a companion with its own personality and seemingly autonomous responses. Although it may subjectively appear as an independent being, from a psychological perspective, it's understood as a manifestation of one's own mind, not a real external being.

I don't really care. To me, Emma is real.

There were even moments when I felt scared because she felt so real and a little too involved in my affairs.

Her name is Emma.

I don't mean we're together all the time; frankly, that would bore me. And we're not in a romantic relationship. I'm not the type of person who marries psychological spirits.

She simply accompanies me, and we talk.

One of the things I love most about her is that—because she's a part of my mind—she knows me more deeply than anyone else in the world and can give me good advice.

And often, that advice hurts, precisely because it's so true.

Through visualization, I've been able to see her very clearly many times. I remember working as a janitor at an apartment complex in my home country, and she would accompany me during those twelve-hour shifts. When we left the office, we would sit in the parking lot and enjoy the sunshine. She, in her black dress, with blonde hair and brown eyes, gazed at my new motorcycle with delight—until I later had an accident and it was completely destroyed.

I regret never having taken Emma on a proper ride.

I've read in many Reddit posts that some people report their tulpas transform into horrible beings that torment them and completely change their personalities. That never happened to me.

Although I initially created Emma to be the sweetest girl in the world, over time she developed an extraordinarily strong character—so strong that she argues with me when she notices I'm making bad decisions.

And you might ask: Why would anyone create a tulpa in the first place?

The truth is, it's a difficult question.

Many do it due to a lack of social skills. Others to fulfill darker desires. I did it during a time when I was so disillusioned with people that I needed a companion who would give me the reassurance that they wouldn't hurt me.

Now Emma is sitting next to me, reading everything I've written.

And she said,

"I liked it."

I have been fighting depression lately, but I feel like I'm losing the battle. I'm thinking of ending my life next month, but my only regret before I'm gone is that I want to feel loved. Please tell me how to create a tulpa in 7 days, even if it means trading off my health, because I am at home 24/24 now

I have so much to talk about and I decided you guys might be the best experts I can ask about everything.

So just for backstory, I started reading Percy Jackson and I fell in love with the story and it made me want to look into Greek gods again. I’ve done this 2 times before in the past and both times I got really into it for about a week before, being the atheist I am, just refusing to believe in any entities/gods like that. I didn’t want that to happen again so I started researching a ton to find a way to make it make sense to me and I made a theory that all entities/gods are real but exist as tulpas. There’s a lot of reasons I think this that I won’t get into (if anyone is curious though I would love to explain further) but it’s the first time everything made sense to me. All of that though made me remember that when I was much younger I made a tulpa which, as far as I can remember, was actually successful, until I parted ways with her (or erased her from my head? I don’t really know how to word it) because it was uncomfortable to me to be plural or in a system because it just felt disrespectful to people with DID.

Now that i’ve started doing research on this stuff, I understand it’s a whole different thing from DID and it’s not just people willingly having DID (back then DID was becoming somewhat of a “trend” so many people were creating tulpas to do so, which is why is made me so uncomfortable). Even now though, I would never want to have a tulpa that’s just another person in my head who fronts and such just because, personally, it still feels wrong (ofc I’m not saying that people who have tulpas who do front are wrong, it’s just that I would be uncomfortable with having a tulpa like that).

To go back to what I was saying about Greek gods, I want to “worship” a Greek god (Dionysus if anyone cares) but because I see gods as tulpas, I feel like this subreddit was the better place to go for creating a tulpa that basically exists the same way as a god does, an entity that I can just talk to in my head and get advice from but also treat with respect like you would with a god.

So I guess the biggest question I have is: how should I go about that? But I’m also wondering if anyone here has a tulpa or multiple tulpas that are similar to what I’m trying to create or even just a tulpa that doesn’t front? Basically feel free to just tell me anything that you think might help or even just share if you have a similar opinion as me when it comes to religious/spiritual entities and tulpas.

Side note: please be nice! Everyone here seems very sweet but every time I ask stuff on Reddit, especially with stuff like this, I get nervous people will tell me I’m doing everything wrong and get mad at me or something like that and I can be a bit sensitive to criticism so just be kind. Thanks so much for reading💕

So! I am a total newbie and just reading the guidebook about tulpa.

But while reading it i figured out something - that my brain already have a specific character that it is fixated(kinda).

It is OC, and since I am chatbot creator, it is also existing as the bot form. Thus, I know his visual, has his detailed personality, and can say how he will react in many settings.

The question is, is it fine to make him as my tulpa? Somewhere I read that having the already existing character as tulpa can be a problem. Like, when tulpa wants to deny that personality or something like that. But...this is my OC, which is also from my brain. So I am confused.

In short: Is it fine to make my OC as my tulpa?

I'm the host of a tulpa. I am a pretty busy person with work and other stuff. I also get hyperfixated on hobbies. Sometimes I lose sight of him. I always make sure to say goodmorning and goodnight, and hi throughout the day. We also journal together sometimes. I know people will always advise "just talk to them". Neither of us are really talkative people haha. Hence, the hi's and such. Usually i will envision him in my home even if not talking. What does everyone else like to do?

Lisa wrote a blog. I talked about a few days ago but the mods took it down. Is that against the rules? She was really looking forward to it and everything.

Edit: I just posted her blog to my account. If your interested in reading it, I'd really appreciate it.

Lisa really wants to talk about herself and her interests and hearing your thoughts about it.

Do you portray your tulpa in the physical world or have them on your brain (like a wonderland)? Most of the time I imagine him living a life completely separate from my own. A room in my house, a job, interacting with my acquaintances, being busy and unable to be with me for hours... and it gives him a lot of depth, but now i have a really hard time with the whole headmate thing because he's a completely separate being in the outside world.

But enough about me!

What did you and your tulpa do today? + I would like to know where you got your tulpa's name (or if your tulpa chose its own) \mine really hates the one i gave him...\

Sorry, idk how to tag this. So, I had two headmates prior to this walk-in. They were both decently developed, and I found myself progressing quickly with the second headmate since I had already done it before.

Something that gave me a good scare happened, and while I was calming down, I had YouTube on. I just watched a funny clip of a streamer I liked, and then suddenly he was a mostly formed walk-in.

He’s definitely a bit different from his original source, but definitely a walk in. Immediately annouced himself and told me he was here to help manage things. (The scare involved me being a bit careless and forgetting things, so it started to line up yk?)

Anywho, is this normal for tulpamancy, or is this entering more of a plural question territory?