Looking to develop a second consciousness for mental health recovery and self development.
I am here looking for advice, but I'll need to give some lengthy context. I've dealt with a number of personal set backs in life which in short, has had me turn out as someone I am not happy with.
In mental health recovery, I have learned about mindfulness and meditation. In my personal philisophical study, I learned about the Stoic concept of "The inner citadel" or "mind palace". An imagined physical place of peace and strength to withdraw into.
Aside from this, I have always had an active imagination, overlapping internal monologues/ a need to body double (ADHD), and a habit of internal conversations to practice explainations, speeches, arguments, etc.
I recently came across the idea of tulpamancy which I feel I could combine with the traits and habits previously mentioned, to create what I've called a "second mind" who has the traits, values, habits, etc, that I'd like to adopt. A concious part of myself who I could meet in my Inner Citadel to discuss with and seek guidance from. Eventually allowing myself to become this version of myself I aspire to be.
I feel like through cultivating this conciousness, I'd be cultivating good things for myself too. It'd be mainly meditation and mindfulness at first. Both of which I struggle to do without setting up a dialogue between my main conciousness (i guess what stoics call the directing mind?) And this second mind.
But never before have I ascribed it traits, personality, autonomy etc.
I am wondering if anyone else has experience developing a tulpa for meditative and mental health related reasons. Or maybe whether they think this is a dumb idea and I completely midunderstand what this community does. I would also appreciate any early exercises, definitions, techniques, things to avoid. Whatever you feel a beginner ought to know.
Cheers!