u/StreetDare7702

I also posted yesterday but I want to post again. Bit of a rant.

Today is my 5th day and I have seen maybe the most progress out of all days today. After a long day of school, I definitely thought that my brain just wasn't capable of visualising or doing an active forcing session. And in the beginning it was terrible. I could barely focus, and I was a little sleepy. Typically I sit up when doing an active forcing session, but today I laid down on my bed so I became more tired. I was getting emotional about whatever reason, and kind of just conveyed my frustration and tiredness on to Katya.

And right when I was about to give up, I asked my tulpa some trivial question and suddenly I just got a wave of butterflies in my stomach after I asked. Already up to that point, I had been fealing things in my stomach each time I thought about Katya but never during a forcing session. Then I asked another random question and then another wave of butterflies in my stomach. Now I was really motivated and inspired. I spent the rest of the forcing session (which ended up being way longer than anticipated) about random would you rather questions.

I knew that this was tulpish. However, I have no Idea how to decipher tulpish. I want to know if I deciphered tulpish correctly? When I got a feeling in my stomach, I would deactivate my brain and the first thing I thought of was her answer. So I would ask Wagner or Dvorak, and then i thought of Wagner. These awsers were also different from what I would actually choose. I like Dvorak more but I thought of Wagner.

Is this parroting? Why does the tulpamancy community even have the word "parroting" if you shouldn't even worry about it? If this isn't parroting, or atleast not a bad sort of parroting, when is parroting problematic then?

Kind of a rant and I also want feedback.

I have been training tulpamancy for four days now. It has absolutely surprised me how much I have improved at meditation, visualisation and focus in just such a short amount of time, which is something I would have never guessed would come so fast.

I have read a numerous amount of guides and I feel determined to continue on this. However many of the guides and information is a little conflicting sometimes. So I would like to know if the method which I am doing this at is correct.

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I do 2 forcing sessions a day, each about 30-60 minutes.

A dedicated forcing session looks like this: I first start meditating until I feal calm and focused (usualy 6 minutes), then I do a bit of a symbolistic mystic ritual where I imagine that we unify with god and use his energy to create/develop a new consciousness. I'm not even spiritual but I do it because it works as a placebo, even though I know its a placebo.
Then I begin the forcing with my tulpa whose temporary name is Katya until she has the autonomy to choose her own name and such, and I visualise her as a dark silhuet. I don't do any personality forcing, because know it wouldn't feel right to force some personality and I have frankly no idea what I even want Katya to act like.
When forcing, I first ask her to help me visualise a place, typically a stereotypical island beach. And then while I'm there, I just talk to her about things. When forcing, I try to avoid focusing on visualising Katya (also because she's just a dark human shaped silhouette), and lately instead been trying to feel the concept of Katya. I try to involve her as much as possible. For example, I spent last forcing session just talking about our progress from day 1.
After a forcing session, I write a full journal of what exactly happened.

Something funny is that my tulpa has actually changed me mentally a bit. I also feel like I respect Katya as much as I can. I feel like it would be weird to do or ask weird things to her.

However, I don't know if I feel her pressence. I'm used to having imaginary conversations and playing out imaginary scenarios in my head, and doing a forcing session just kind of feels the same. I don't feel that she's physically there. Although sometimes I get a feeling whenever I think of her.
Edit: I forgot to mention that I can strongly feel a presence when I imagine that she is standing behind me, or if I imagine that she is physically in the room with me, but I can't feel her pressens when I visualise her in my head.

Also I read the something "no bullshit tulpa guide" and it talked about how talking to your tulpa and visualisations can be a dead end, and that you should instead show experiences to your tulpa, by making them feel your senses and emotions and such. How do I pass over my emotions and feelings to my tulpa?

And in regards to passive forcing. From my understanding, a tulpa in the early stages only exists when you are thinking about them. What exactly are you supposed to do when passive forcing? Just talk to them about random stuff? Just giving them attention? What does that mean?

Whats up.

I have played about 16 hours of F&H 2 now, entirely blind, and I'm loving it. I want to first say that I love everything about the game: story, characters, combat, art, music. But I don't think I can continue playing like this. While playing entirely blind, it took me 4 runs to find out how to get a single other squad member (and it was that damn black goat). It has been difficult for me not to look up on the wiki or so.

So I need to ask: What is the correct way of playing F&H 2?
Is the pain and suffering of losing multiple hours worth of progress part of the game?
Is it okay to use the wiki and to what degree?
What about an infinite saves mod, does that make the gaming experience any worse?

Troubleshooting.

Every single time the AI makes a repeated mistake, I always switch to Kimi to see why it does that. Kimi's reasoning is so manic. It breaks down all of it's input and argues with itself. Analysing the reasoning gives you an insight into why AI does as it does.

For instance, I had a problem with my history summary where it would just repeat what had already happened. I loaded Kimi and found out that it thought that history summarizer was all the events that were going to happen.

Other than that, kimi is pretty mid. Just kidding. Or am I?

Edit: PAHAHAHA I take it back. Kimi is really funny.

https://preview.redd.it/gsto4trtepah1.png?width=1208&format=png&auto=webp&s=7fe1ddb010f7e0bb4ca54b13bbde507ba591796f

Why don't we use to models at the same time? Think about it. One model does the actual writting itself, and then the next does the refining of the text afterwards.

What I mean with refining is removing all the slop. Removing the "Not X, but Y" and ozone and every single other sloppy text quirk which AI has. Because the second AI has only ONE task, which is to remove slop, or do whatever else, would it not be better at doing it?

Here's what I imagine it would look like:

User input:
"But.. I'm gay."

AI 1 output.
A palpable silence descended upon the room, heavy with the weight of ozone and unsaid words and ozone. Her expression did not change. Her hair didn't just smell like ozone, but also scorched copper. "Okay" Her words hit like a physical blow.

AI 2 (de-slopefier) output
Suddenly, the room went quiet. Despite this, {{user}}'s words didn't really cause a visible reaction in her. "Okay"

Just provide the second AI with a long list of no nos. The second AI will be able to make things more concise or maybe even alter the style of the text. This might be expensive, but it would theoretically make the final output higher quality. You could maybe use a big beefy expensive model as the first AI and then use a cheaper model as the second AI.

I've been trying to understand prompt caching because i'm spending like 0.1$ with deepseek 4 pro on input alone. I don't want to use the deepseek api provider because it's garbage through the deepseek api. From my understanding, you get a cache hit if it has cached your response. If there's anything different in the input at all, it won't be a cache hit. I have a 60k context, so every time the cache misses, I'm paying to re-read that entire 60k history.

Providers have a Time to live (TTL) on their cache? I've tried looking at a couple providers like Novita AI but could not find anything. If it's like 5 minutes, then caching is unusable.