u/Putrid-Rock1751

Dude my life is slowly tumbling down it's July 3 been 3 months since coaching started and i have barely studied like I've done very little question practice I feel so bad it's an integrated allen program and in class i understand nothing and im too introverted to even ask doubts and then i come home and i watch a lecture im able to understand much better so it just feels bad that my parents spent 6 lakhs for 2 years while a online batch costs 4k. I have no friends over there I've not interacted much in these 3 months. My parents were telling me to join a normal school and do jee coaching seperately but I was adamant. Now I feel atleast if i joined a normal school with my friends atleast I would've been happy and maybe I would have understood more with online batches like arjuna and have had a social life.

28tard over here and ive seen countless posts of ppl showing their percentile and saying they failed and wtv, but man isn't stuff like even 90%ile good tho? It means you're ahead of 90% of people and you're saying you're not getting any college at that much? Heck even 95%ilers aren't getting any colleges like wtf. Its gonna be even more fucked in 2028.

I respect a person who even got like 81%ile cause they aren't completely dumb and a solid percentile but get dogshit colleges. I mean think about it, being in the top 20% and getting into a college, is that college really bad where 80%ilers are there in it. How is that a bad college, you're hanging out with the top 20% crowd.

If I'm wrong then correct me cause I feel this competition has really fucked with yalls minds and don't realise you're not bad or a failure.

Oh well time for me to enter this competition now 🥹✌️💔

Its been about 3 weeks since my integrated allen coaching began. Being an engineer is not my passion but just the safest option, and now I'm doubting myself if I'm ready for this journey. I feel I made a mistake joining this integrated shithole and could've joined a normal school with my friends with pcm.

Each day, each class i feel I'm understanding something but I'm not able to keep up with the pace of my teachers. Kuch upar se jaata hai kuch samajh aata hai. Might also be due to the fact that I'm barely studying (1hour a day on average which is crazy cause I studied 3 hrs minimum in 1st week).

I have no friends over here and mere seniors bhi dara rahe hai ki allen ke jee advanced tests are rly hard and half the people sleep during the paper, and im like did i make a mistake wtf I don't wanna sleep every other Sunday for 2 years 😭.

If any seniors are reading this, please guide me. Is this a normal event? Can I get through this or should I back out rn (can refund before 3rd may and with 75k deduction out of 1.3 lakh). Then again in a normal school id prob not prep for JEE or anything but I'll focus on boards but then again what's the point of focusing on boards id be clueless after 12th.