I realized I automatically make myself smaller in conversations and I don't know when I started doing it
I was out with a few coworkers this week and one of them pointed out something I had never noticed about myself. Every time I started talking about something I'd done, I'd immediately downplay it. I'd say things like it wasn't a big deal, I just got lucky or it was probably easier than it sounds before anyone had even reacted.
Once she said it, I couldn't stop noticing it. It's not just at work either. If someone compliments me, I immediately explain why I don't deserve it as much as they think. If I know the answer to something, I'll start with I could be wrong before I even say it. It's almost like I'm trying to make sure I don't come across as too confident.
The other night I was playing on my phone and scrolling through old messages, and I realized I even text like that. I soften opinions, apologize for things that don't need an apology, and add little qualifiers to almost everything I say. Nobody ever taught me to do that, at least not directly, but somewhere along the way it became automatic.
I'm trying to catch myself now, but it's surprising how deeply ingrained it is. I'm curious if anyone else has noticed themselves doing this, and if so, did you ever figure out where it came from?