Is this dissociation???
I asked in r/CPTSD about this already but haven’t had any success in finding an answer 🥲.
Does anyone else experience their vision completely blurring, losing the ability to move, and being aware that you’re not in control of your own body but can’t do anything about it? 😕 I’ve been calling it disassociation but I don’t know if that’s exactly what it IS.
Sometimes when I experience really intense episodes of black and white thinking, or very intense emotions in general, my vision blurs out (as well as physically losing control) and then I “return to” my body, completely numbed as if I wasn’t experiencing any of the emotions prior, at worst I come back dazed and reeling from what just happened
Any answers for what this might be??
For further clarity, I am diagnosed with C-PTSD, and when I “come back” I don’t end up in another room or place, only slightly moved to the side or slumped over (this is entirely dependent on what position I get “stuck”in) so that rules out the possibility of it being DID and an alter messing with me. Additionally, I have a history of depersonalization & dissociation so I know what those are like, I’m just extremely unsure about what these instances could be.
Thank you for reading & thank you in advance to those who answer!