Regret after big move
I am 35 (M) and feeling so lost and confused. My grandmother who I was very close with passed in March after an incredible 100 years of life.
After this happened, I made a quick decision to inform my landlord that I wouldn’t be renewing my lease in my former city (about 1.5 hours away). I signed a lease and moved into a new apartment in my home town about 6 weeks ago. I can’t help but think that the impulse decision was motivated by a need to be closer to family ( I feel wat too old to be running back to family).
It’s been about 6 weeks now and I feel miserable. The first few weeks I was able to occupy myself but now that I am settled in, it feels so isolating. I work from home and haven’t developed any sort of routine yet. The city I left had so much more opportunity for socialization and contact with others.
What complicates this more is that I am in the process of completing a masters to be a registered therapist and honestly hoped to find a job in my home town when o was finished. I’m debating moving back to the city I moved away from but the feeling of wanting to someday move back here has me feeling stuck.
Not sure how to proceed, I’m spending my days ruminating and have fallen into a depressive state. Not at all how I thought this would go.