SR-17018 - It is Your Turn
It would be hard to properly share how much pain, anxiety and fear that I have been operating under for the past few months. The horrible, terrible despair. I was sober [from alcohol and everything else] for decades. Then, during Covid, I found an awesome Kratom and Kava shot from a company called SoJ. I really enjoyed these, without any issues, and had two a day for 5 years until they were banned in my State.
In the process of replacing these, I found 7OH at a smoke shop on the border. Within 1 month, I was a full-blown addict in the heavy throes of active addiction: The fear, the money, the shame, the hopelessness, the panic, the misery, the feelings of dread and impending doom. I was a slave to the least version of myself, and even that wasn't going to be enough as the next bans came in. I started going to appointments for a doctor to help, a rehap, etc and I could tell they didn't get it. The walls were closing in. fast.
I started watching something called the Recovery Room or something with Mandi over on TikTok and it was the first thing in a long time that resonated with me. These people understood what I was going through, AND MORE, they had a solution [and the solution was being banned too lol]. Conflicting emotions on that one. I learned everything I could about SR-17018 and started ordering the tablets, the kits, the supplements [I was lurking in Reddit when the first liposomal vitamin c guide with SR came out]. That dude and the girl - saved me. As soon as I had all my supplies and had worked up the courage - I started 'front-loading'.
A week later: I am running with my dog at the water, suddenly aware that the incessant noise in my brain had stopped. Everything, and I mean everything, about life is 100% better and there was no reason for me to be so trapped just months ago.
I write this for the person scared that it might not work for them, or the one feeling shame like they did something wrong. F$#& that!!! You are a wonderful human being who got caught in an evil cycle by evil people and you are as deserving of the new life that lays ahead of you as anyone else would be.
Go and claim it!!!!!
I love you all [nice to feel love again - in addition to all the other emotions we stuff down].