u/Queen_Victoria081319

I am five years clean of self harm today! I can’t believe I’m typing those words out. Especially after the year I’ve had. Getting to this point wasn’t easy, but it also wasn’t hard. A lot of the time I didn’t think about it like I used to. I only thought about it when something bad happened. A lot of bad things happened this year. I lost my job and I’ve been spending the past four months looking for a new one, but I don’t have one yet. I haven’t been mentally ok since February (when I found out I was losing my job). The amount of times I’ve come close to hurting myself is scary. But I will say I’m happy I didn’t. I started 12 years ago when I was 12 and now I am six days away from being 25. I started therapy eight years ago and it changed my life. It’s crazy how time flies. I am so so utterly proud of myself for making it this far. For not letting my thoughts and actions consume me like they did in the past. I never thought I could do it and yet here I am.

I know it’s a cliché to hear it, but it does get better. Of course there are gonna be the ups and downs. But life will definitely be beautiful again.

I’m five years clean. I can’t believe this is happening. Ahhhhhhhhhh!