u/Queensfavouritecorgi

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Hi everyone. I’m hoping someone might be willing to look at my chart because I’ve been feeling very lost about the direction of my life.

The last few years have been extremely difficult. In 2024, I went through a life-threatening medical emergency followed by a period of severe psychological instability. It changed me profoundly. I’ve also struggled to forgive my husband for the part he played in the crisis and his behaviour before amd afterward, and it caused me to reevaluate our entire relationship, I felt like my whole world collapsed.

I’m now 35 with two young children, and I feel like I still haven’t found my place in the world.

Career has been a particularly painful area. I’ve studied and worked in several different fields, but things never seem to quite come together. I often feel like I’m in the wrong place at the wrong time. For example, an opportunity for my dream job came just after I had moved across the country and had a baby. Later, when I was finally ready to seriously pursue my career, the job market dried up.

There is also a recurring pattern of conflict or opposition in my working life. I seem to encounter difficult employer/authority dynamics, feel sidelined or overlooked, or have to fight much harder than other people just to establish myself. Strangely, I feel like a similar dynamic has followed me in romantic relationships too. I’m wondering if there is something in my chart that might explain this pattern.

I also burn out very easily from conventional full-time work, but at the same time, not having a career or professional identity makes me feel deeply unworthy. I’ve always been extremely creative and constantly dream up businesses, projects and ideas. Creating things feels like a fundamental part of my identity, yet I’ve struggled to turn any of it into something concrete or lasting.

The hardest part is that all of this uncertainty is happening while my children are little. They mean more to me than anything, and I’m terrified that I’m spending these precious years worrying about work, money, my marriage and what I’m “supposed” to become instead of simply being present with them.

I feel like I’m standing at a crossroads.

Do I keep grinding away trying to establish myself within an institution? Do I pursue my own business or creative work? Do I put career ambitions aside for a few years and devote myself more fully to my children?

The last option is emotionally complicated because it would also mean becoming more dependent on my husband, and after everything that has happened between us, I don’t feel secure enough in the marriage to comfortably do that.

So I think the question underneath all of this is: What am I actually meant to build my life around?

I’m nearing the end of Rahu Mahadasha and entering Jupiter Mahadasha in October 2026. I would really appreciate a neutral reading of what my chart suggests about the next chapter of my life—particularly career/workplace struggles, education, family life, creative or independent work, and whether there are indications of greater stability ahead.

If also appreciate a prediction on what happens with marriage... If this one eventually ever ends. If there is anything else coming. If I should just be alone? I feel so alone already, is this how it's meant to be? Do I ever feel close to him again? 

I’m not looking for someone to tell me everything will magically become perfect. I’d genuinely like to understand the strengths and difficulties in the chart, and what direction might allow me to work with it rather than constantly feeling like I’m fighting my own life.

Thank you so much to anyone willing to take the time to look.

Little mistakes that cascade into big mistakes. Unforgiving coworkers with sky high expectations. I'm brand new to the job, but even I'm embarrassed about the little details I'm missing sometimes. I always think I've checked every box, then realize.later something went wrong and I didn't catch it. I feel anxious and humiliated since starting. I feel like I'm 15 years old again with no confidence. Any remedies would help, thank you. I'm not sure which planet to appease.

Him = chart 1

Me = chart 2

Title says it all. Some thing can't be forgiven.

My finances are still unstable. I'm still flip-flopping on whether my emotional security or financial security is more important.

We have kids.

Any up coming Dasha's support clarity? How do I break free from this?

Both kids have Ketu in 4th house.

Moon has malefic influence in both kids charts....

Mom has ketu beside sun in her own chart

Am I on to something, Is losing mom early indicated by these charts?

1st chart = synastry

I'm blue, he is red

2nd chart = composite