Why do I exist !
I don't Care if you read or not it's your choice either way today I am feeling like a pile of shit what is stuck on its way to the rectum I feel stuck in life some weeks ago I took 25 paracitamol tablet it is said to be able to kill a person if you take more than 7 at once but I didn't die and on that day I had my 12th last exam i should die I am a burden on my mom
I don't have a father I am bad at study I tried trading 5 month's ago but I failed I am not good at talking with anyone I have no friends I can't share this thing with anyone else we'll I am anonymous you could say I have no reason to live but who knows maybe after I die I will wake up and be like ooo it was a dream even this I am writing maybe nobody Cares they have there own life maybe it was mentioned to be next I am thinking of jumping of a building or something I don't have the guts to do it I am writing whatever comes to my mind I
I have a Philosophy of life that we all are universal or you might say god or natural or some omnipotent being who was lonely being alone and desires friendship or someone so he or she created the world and divided himself into us land plants and different elements and air to experience life or other's so that he can feel alive
well I didn't even experience love or friendship or someone's unconditional love and who are reading this might say that I have my mom but she thinks of me as a mistake a responsibility a burden a useless son I can't even get a job I am a loser
I am coward who can't even say this to anyone face-to-face I am a introvert I can't even talk to a girl I get scared I don't know how I will get into college with my grade I am a pushover
you all who read this can reply or not I was so fed-up of life that I had to dump it somewere
I know I am a loser
and if you read till this thank you for hearing my bullshit