u/Quirky-Ad6369

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Anyone else out here struggling with this? I feel like no one talks about this. Intrusive thoughts and fears about my deity/our work together are gonna be the death of me I swear. My diagnosis drove me away from my work in the past and I recently got back into it and it's still insane over here despite my best efforts at giving myself grace and understanding. I just wanted to know if anyone else in this sub experiences this and/or could offer some words of reassurance or encouragement. Best case scenario I can hope for is Loki finding humor/pity in my episodes 🫠

So maybe this is dumb and maybe I'm just inexperienced and spiritually blind. But sometimes I wonder/feel as though I'm not working with Loki himself but rather someone pretending to be him. And I've been over this so many times, I've done my best to clear doubts, just trust and go with it and the last thing I wish to do is disrespect him or piss him off with this but I guess I might need some external reassurance. I'm familiar with him I think, I do believe I've been working with him or at least I have a few times. I'm familiar with a lot of his myths, still trying to familiarize myself with norse pagan practices, been doing more research and putting more effort into building a relationship with him. I'm just struggling to see where my own mind is throwing me for a loop and what's real I guess lol. There have been times/experiences/inconsistencies(?) recently that make me question things heavily and I'm not sure if he's just fucking with me or something. I'm sorry if this sounds dumb I'm just now starting to get more serious about my deity work and I feel as though I'm struggling to "see". Idk how to explain it but I feel as though I'm doing things wrong and am struggling to get a clear answer. If anyone else has had experiences like this or can help a fellow (wannabe?) Lokean out please do 🥲