u/Radiant_Fan_7701

(editor’s note: so i almost missed another type me tuesday bc i had to rewrite this entire thing since i got distracted watching the movie “Good Boy” and the app reloaded 🫠 good times, good movie tho!)

so sorry if this is scattered, i have adhd and its hard for me to focus and organize my thoughts especially since im not the most introspective. i included 3 images that are like my “vibe”, and my top 3 characters i find relatable (ENA from the web series, Isabelle from AC, and Agent Stone from the Sonic movies/franchise)

ok so for the last two weeks ive been going back and forth between 2 and 9 and i thought 2 but i just cant get behind the “prideful lion” image of a 2. i feel like a heart type bc shame of who i am and if i was useless is a major theme of my life i just dont see myself as the ambitious social climber “regina george” that a so2 is (not focusing on instincts here but know im a social/ secondary self pres). however, i also dont see myself as a 9 and i kinda hate the idea of being a “common” esfj 9 bc how can i be the most basic typology when i feel so out of place amongst my peers all the time? i got bullied and didnt have many friends in school, and the longest friend i had was a narcissistic 3 who used me like a puppet, treated me like a dog bc i always came back no matter how much she hurt me. i kinda thought that if i didnt have her i had no one, and someone was better than no one, but now as a result i have an issue getting close to others. i prefer to be superficial in a way? however, i dont feel 9ish also bc when i have an opinion i usually express it, just feel guilty after. stereotypical, but i kinda have to make a lot of dinner decisions in my family (esp for my so6 mom) when my dad isnt home to pick lol. she always wants smth subconsciously and i gotta guess and i HATE IT BC SHE JUST SIGHS AND GOES “oh, thats fine…” LIKE I KNOW ITS NOT. i also have to mediate a lot between my mom and sister (sx8), they both have strong personalities and i can usually see both sides of the argument. my dad also helps (so8), but tbh i feel like i dont have a lot of room to express my anger bc it just gets boiled down to being emotional. but i love all 3 of them still with all my heart, id do anything and be anything for them. but enough ranting, i dont think i can be a 2 either bc even tho i trust only the way i do things and think i can do a better job than most (and if i find someone who i consider an expert they often become a beloved mentor type person in my eyes), i dont see myself as this “king” of sorts. i see myself as more of a deer, dog, seal, or even hamster before i saw myself as the lion Naranjo described so2 as. im also typically altruistic, and while i expect some sort of kindness or love in return for my good acts to others its not the sole reason i do things. the other day i was driving to work and found a puppy, and even tho i was gonna be late if i stopped and also knew this dog usually does this anyway, i still stopped and returned her to her yard even if id risk getting written up for being late bc i couldnt live with myself if something happened to the poor thing and i couldve done smth abt it. im known to “bet on losing dogs” as Mitski sang (that song haunts my life as does most of her music lol). really, all i want is people to like and accept me for who i am: to not be “too much”, “weird”, or simply a “tool” in their eyes, yet i cant help but try to earn this love by being useful. i accidentally am the reason my grandpa isnt here anymore, and the guilt haunts me even 7 years later. because i was useless. i want to be loved, i want to be special and useful, i want to be someone.

thank you for listening to my pity party ramblings, and i feel embarrassed for even posting this lol. but what does this make me? idk, you decide!

bc here we actually encourage human creativity with our moodboards and dont usually tolerate ai slop 💀

if you come into my comments on some bs of “oh tritype isnt real”, shush. i am having FUN!

This was inspired by a comment I saw on here where someone said "3's actually touch grass" and was made with zero thought behind it. If you don't like it argue with the wall idc