Imperturbability still feels too far away for me. Lester talked a lot about how great ultimate freedom is, but it's not something I can really relate to from my own experience yet.

I honestly can't say I want imperturbability more than I want the world.

But I do want to feel better.

When I feel apathetic, I want to feel happier.
When I feel angry, I want to feel happier.
When I feel proud, I want to feel even happier.
When I'm already happy, I want to feel joy and love.
When I'm feeling loving, I want to feel perfection.

I still don't really want "imperturbability." But I do want to keep feeling better, at least all the way to perfection.

And for me, that's enough. It makes Step 1 practical instead of like some distant spiritual goal.

Hope this helps or inspires someone else too.

TL;DR: the $1 Go plan gets you $10 of DeepSeek V4 Pro credit, not the "$40" the headline claims. The $10 GOAT plan gets you a $20 DeepSeek V4 Pro allowance, not "$80". The "4x deal" is DeepSeek's own price cut, relabeled. The value itself is fine. The misleading marketing around it isn't.

This is their pricing page, right now. Go costs $1/month and comes with "$10 in credits included" and "up to $40 usage with deals". GOAT costs $10/month with "$70 in credits included" and "$80 on DeepSeek V4 Pro with deals".

Source: https://commandcode.ai/pricing (captured 2026-08-08)

Here's what "with deals" means. Their own GOAT model table shows DeepSeek V4 Pro with a -75% badge, $1.74 / $3.48 / $0.0145 struck through, next to $0.435 / $0.87 / $0.003625.

Source: https://commandcode.ai/docs/plans/goat (captured 2026-08-08)

Now check DeepSeek's own price list. The current official rates for deepseek-v4-pro are exactly those numbers: $0.435 per million input tokens, $0.87 output, $0.003625 on cache hits. Anyone with an API key gets them.

Source: https://api-docs.deepseek.com/quick_start/pricing (captured 2026-08-08)

It gets better. Archived copies of DeepSeek's page show DeepSeek itself running that "75% off" promo, with the same strikethroughs, back in May. And by June 1 the cut was permanent.

Source: https://web.archive.org/web/20260501050639/https://api-docs.deepseek.com/quick_start/pricing

Source: https://web.archive.org/web/20260601081343/https://api-docs.deepseek.com/quick_start/pricing/

Any reseller billing at today's rates gets that "deal" for free. Command even spells the trick out in its docs: "$10 credits effectively has up to $40 of DeepSeek V4 Pro usage", and the deal is labeled "permanent".

Source: https://commandcode.ai/docs/resources/pricing-limits (captured 2026-08-08)

So your $10 of credits is $10 of usage at current prices. The "$40" headline only works if you pretend the old price, which nobody has paid since May 31, is still real.

The GOAT plan launched in August 2026, two months after the DeepSeek cut was permanent. Command Code bills DeepSeek tokens, so it knew the rates. I don't think a company builds a "permanent 4x deal" out of a price that stopped existing two months earlier by accident. I asked them about it and got blocked on the platforms where I asked. That's my experience, take it for what it's worth. I believe the misleading framing is deliberate. I can't prove intent, but the dates do the talking.

To be fair, the plans are not bad value. $1 for $10 of DeepSeek V4 Pro usage at official rates is a decent deal. My problem isn't the pricing, it's the misleading marketing wrapped around it, and how the company and its CEO treats people who ask questions about it. I'd think twice before trusting this company with anything. If you read the fine print and check the numbers yourself, at least you'll know exactly what you're paying for.

This post was drafted with AI. I do dislike Command Code's marketing, just not enough to write all of this by hand.

Source: https://www.bilibili.com/video/BV1eQMp6LEeb/

Found this insightful video on Bilibili. The creator reframes the three wants as primal survival programs, which clicked for me. Sharing in case it helps others. English translation and original Chinese below.

Summary

• The three wants (approval, control, security) aren't lofty spiritual concepts. They're survival programs that keep the body alive.
• We overcomplicate them because we're "too civilized." In reality they're animal drives.
• Wanting control = the animal's urge to hoard food before winter, stay in familiar territory, avoid danger.
• Wanting approval = the animal's urge to join a tribe, not be left alone (which meant death), mate (the most intimate form of acceptance).
• Wanting security = the body doesn't distinguish between emotional pain and physical pain. Both register as a death warning.
• The practice: when stuck identifying a want, return to the "animal self" and feel which survival drive is operating. Then release it.

English Translation

Introduction

I've noticed a lot of people struggle to identify the three wants. I did too, for a long time. Sometimes I wasn't sure if I'd identified them correctly, or whether I was releasing a thought, an emotion, or a desire.

This made me try harder to identify them, and then I'd get spectacularly stuck. I'd use Step 5 to get unstuck, but since I wasn't actually feeling the wanting control, just mentally reaching for Step 5, it barely did anything.

But with continued releasing, I got more and more familiar with the three wants. One day it clicked, and I've never struggled with it since. So I want to share this approach, or really just a way of looking at the three wants, in case it helps anyone who practices releasing.

The three wants are survival programs

We have to realize: the three wants are survival programs. Everything about them exists so the body can survive better in this world. They're not lofty, profound, or abstract. They're the most down-to-earth thing there is.

And often it's exactly because we treat them as "too civilized" that we miss the fact that they're animalistic at root. In modern society, under all the pretty language, we forget that humans are essentially animals. Animals that want to eat, drink, mate, reproduce, and stay alive.

You've probably heard that humans exist on three levels: body, mind, and spirit. Divinity, humanity, and animality all coexist. The Release Technique is about letting go of the animalistic part and returning to the full divine nature that's already there.

So when you identify the three wants, you're actually observing that animalistic self. Watching how the most basic survival program operates within you.

When you look at all your feelings and desires from this angle, the three wants become super clear. It couldn't be simpler. We're the ones who make it complicated, because we're too civilized, too in our heads, too eager to solve problems.

Wanting control

When you want to save up money, it's the same thing as an animal hoarding food before winter. When you feel things spinning out of control, it's the same fear as a primitive human lost in a forest, not knowing where a beast might leap out from. Aren't those completely identical?

You realize this is wanting control. By hoarding food you make sure you survive longer. By staying in familiar territory you stay further from danger.

Just feel this for a second. You're a primitive human. You want to find food. You want to hunt. You want to fortify your cave. Now think about your actual goals: you want a good job, you want to release better, you want a mansion. See it? Once you strip away the surface, the driving force is identical. It's the survival program. No matter how you dress it up in words, at the most fundamental level, it's all the same drive to make the body live longer and better through effort.

Wanting approval

Let's look at wanting approval the same way. You'll find that bone-deep desire to be liked, accepted, understood. To not be disliked, abandoned, ignored. This program is identical to an animal wanting to join a tribe, not wanting to be excluded, not wanting to be left alone.

As a fragile body, you instinctively want to join a group to resist risk, get resources, gain security. In civilized society, we want friends, we want more attention online. As primitive humans, we wanted to join a familiar, close-knit tribe. One that would hunt and play with us, share food with us when the hunt failed. If you became the tribe leader, you had more power and resources, and all of that required others' approval.

The subconscious automatically pursues approval because approval is genuinely good for this body. As long as you identify as this body, you'll be driven by wanting approval.

This includes when releasing on a specific person (SP). We tend to overthink it, analyzing our feelings, even confusing ourselves. Still too civilized, too delicate. For animals, reproduction is instinct, and this is wanting approval too. There's nothing more intimately accepting than reproduction. (It also involves wanting control and wanting security, but I won't go into that here.) As animals, females subconsciously want a strong mate and a safe, comfortable environment, because with those things they can safely bear healthy children.

Your mind might say, "But I don't want children." Too bad. A big part of your body's programming is designed for reproduction, just like women have menstrual cycles. We often overlook that most primal instinct. Lots of things look lofty and elevated but don't hit the core. The core is the survival program, the instinctive reaction, the thing that constantly drives and influences you. Once modern civilization packages them up, we stop recognizing them.

Wanting security

Wanting security is obvious, but I want to make one small point: the body doesn't distinguish between emotional pain and physical pain.

For animals, injury and illness easily lead to death. So pain = injury or illness = about to die. It's a program. Emotional pain and physical pain both get flagged as a death warning. That's why we subconsciously avoid negative emotions. Avoiding death is instinct. So is avoiding harm.

Sometimes we clearly feel wanting security but our mind judges it as "not that serious," like "this small thing doesn't rise to wanting security." That's a big mistake. Your body's instinctive response is way more reliable than your mind's analysis. When you feel unsafe, that's wanting security. It's that simple.

How to apply this

There's no specific form or process to follow. Whether you like using a structured process or asking questions, whenever you get stuck identifying the three wants, you can go back to that animal self and feel which tendency is driving you.

For example: I want to successfully release. I notice this feeling is the same as wanting to successfully hunt a rabbit. That's just wanting control. Then, recognizing it as a survival program, I simply choose to switch it off.

Looking at the three wants this way is clean and efficient. It won't generate a bunch of unnecessary self-criticism and inner conflict.

That's all for today. See you next time.

原文

引言

我注意到有不少朋友在识别三大想要上有困难，包括我自己也被这个问题困扰了很长一段时间。有时候不确定自己识别对了没有，又或者不确定自己在释放念头还是情绪，还是欲望。

这个问题导致我下意识努力识别，然后华丽卡住，用第五步解卡。也因为没有感觉到想要控制，只是头脑上想要拿第五步解卡，同样收效甚微。

随着不断的释放，我对三大想要就越来越熟悉，某一天就突然通了，从此再也不被它困扰。现在就和大家分享这个方法，或者说是一种看待三大想要的角度，助力每一个释放的朋友。

三大想要是生存程序

我们一定要意识到三大想要是生存程序。它的一切是为了身体更好地存活在这个世界上，所以它绝对不是什么高深莫测、虚头巴脑的东西，它是最接地气的。

很多时候正是因为我们把它看得太文明了，而忽略了它本来其实是个兽性的东西。在现代社会中，在文字的巧言令色下，我们下意识忽略掉了人本质上只是一种动物，是想要吃饭喝水交配繁衍活下去的动物。

或许大家都听过，人有身心灵三个层面，神性、人性、兽性同时存在。而释放法就是释放掉兽性的部分，回到本自具足的圆满神性。所以识别三大想要的时候，你其实在观察那个兽性的自我，观察那个最基本的生存程序如何运作着。

当你站在这个角度去看自己所有的感受和欲望，你会发现三大想要无比清晰，简单得不能再简单了。是我们太文明、太喜欢动脑子、太喜欢解决问题，才能把这个玩意儿弄得那么复杂。

想要控制

当你想要一笔钱储蓄的时候，和动物在过冬之前想要储备粮食的欲望一模一样。当你发现事情失去控制的时候，和原始人在森林里迷路、不知道哪里跳出来一个野兽的恐惧，是不是完全一致？

你会意识到这是一种想要控制。通过储备粮食的控制，你保证自己能存活得更久一些。通过确保自己在熟悉的环境下，你能离危险更远一点。

只是体会一下这种感受：现在你是一个原始人，你想要找吃的，想要捕猎，想要加固美化自己的洞穴。现在再回忆一下你的目标：你想要好工作，想要释放得更好，想要豪宅。察觉到了吗？在剥掉那个最表面的东西以后，驱动着你的那股力是一模一样的。那就是生存程序。不管怎么通过文字去描述它，在最根本的层面上，它都是通过努力让身体活得更久、更好的欲望。

想要认同

我们用同样的方式去看待想要认同。你会发现那种刻在骨子里的想要被人喜欢、接纳、理解，不想要被人讨厌、抛弃、忽视的程序，和动物想要融入一个部落族群、不想要被排除在外、不想要落单的感受是一模一样的。

作为一具脆弱的身体，本能地想要加入一个族群来抵抗风险、得到物资，从而获得更多的安全感。生活在文明社会中的我们会想要朋友，想要在网络上得到更多的关注。身为原始人的我们想要加入一个熟悉亲密的族群，他们和我们一起打猎玩耍，在捕猎失败的时候还能分给我们食物。如果不小心成为了部落首领，就拥有了更多的权力和资源。而这些统统需要他人认同才能实现。

潜意识会自动自发地追求那个认同感，因为认同对于这个身体来说确实是个好东西。只要你还认同自己是这个身体，那你一定会受到想要认同的驱动。

包括在释放SP（特定的人）的时候，我们会想很多，试图去分析自己的感受，甚至把自己都绕晕了。还是太文明、太细腻了。对动物来说，繁衍就是本能，这也是想要认同。没有比繁衍更加亲密无间的接纳和喜爱了。当然繁衍也会涉及到想要控制和想要安全，这里不多分析。作为动物，雌性会下意识地想要一个强大的伴侣和安全舒适的环境，因为有了这些东西以后，就可以安全地生下健康的孩子。

也许头脑会和你说"可是我没想要生孩子啊"。很可惜，你的身体程序有很大一部分就是为了繁衍而设定的，就像女性会有生理期一样。很多时候我们忽略了那个最本能的冲动。很多东西看起来很高大上，其实没有击中核心。这个核心就是生存程序，就是本能反应，那个你无时无刻不在被影响和驱动的程序。它们被现代文明一包装，我们就认不出它们了。

想要安全

想要安全就更加不用说了，但是这里我想提一个小点：那就是我们的身体并不会区分感受上的痛苦和身体上的痛苦。

对于动物而言，受伤和生病都很容易让它们死去，所以疼痛等于受伤或生病等于快死了。这是一个程序。情感上的痛和身体的痛都会被身体识别成一个死亡警告。这也是为什么我们会下意识地逃避负面情绪，因为逃避死亡是本能，逃避伤害也是本能。

所以有时候我们明明感受到了想要安全，却用头脑判断它没有那么严重，觉得这点小事不至于上升到想要安全。这是大错特错。你的身体本能反应比头脑分析可靠得多。当你觉得不安了，那就是想要安全。就是这么简单的东西。

如何运用

这个方法到底要怎么运用呢？首先它没有一个具体的形式或者流程要走。你平时喜欢用流程也好，喜欢用问句也好，只要在识别三大想要中遇到困难，就可以回到那个动物性的自己，去感受自己正在被哪一种倾向驱动着。

比如说我想要成功释放，我发现这个感受和我想要成功打猎到一只兔子一模一样，这就是个简单的想要控制。然后意识到它们是生存程序，简单地选择关闭这个生存程序就可以了。

用这种视角去看待三大想要会非常干净利落，也不会产生很多不必要的自我批判和拉扯。

今天就分享这些，我们下期再见。

I’ve been trying out both tools with DeepSeek V4 Pro and wanted to hear what others think.

A few quick observations from my side:

- CommandCode has a $1/month plan that gives you $10 in monthly API credit

- I haven’t done any strict benchmarking, but in day‑to‑day coding tasks they *felt* roughly the same in output quality.

- One thing I noticed: CommandCode seemed to burn a little more tokens for the same kinds of prompts compared to OpenCode. Not a huge difference, but it was consistent enough that I’m curious if others see the same.

what’s your experience?

When we’re stuck in an emotion about a particular subject, it can be quite difficult to objectively notice what the want is, hiding underneath both the emotion and the subject.

That’s why this list can help us see more clearly what want we’re holding beneath the surface. From there, it becomes easier to recognize the deeper want for control, approval, or security.

It’s compiled from the chart of emotions in the 1992 Sedona course.

This isn’t the “be-all and end-all” list.

It has helped me, and I hope it helps someone else too. Here it goes:

Sedona Method Chart of Emotions — What Each Level "Wants"

>Source: Sedona Institute 1992 Chart of Emotions

APATHY

Core Want: Desire is dead — nothing is wanted. Nothing works, no one can help. Withdraw and play weak to avoid getting hurt.

• Wants to give up
• Wants to withdraw
• Wants to play weak (to avoid getting hurt)
• Wants to hide
• Doesn't want to be seen

GRIEF

Core Want: Desire for someone to help — "I can't do it, maybe someone else can." Crying out for someone to do it for me.

• Wants someone else to do it for me
• Wants to cry out for someone to do it
• Wants to be noticed, to be comforted
• Wants to hold onto the past ("If only...")

FEAR

Core Want: Desire to strike out but not doing it (thinking they'll hit back harder). Desire to reach out but not doing it (thinking I'll get hurt).

• Wants to strike out but is afraid to (fear of retaliation)
• Wants to reach out but is afraid to (fear of getting hurt)
• Wants to escape
• Wants to survive
• Wants to hide and not be found out

LUST

Core Want: Desire for possession — wanting. Hunger for money, things, people — but with hesitation. An underlying sense that "I cannot, should not have."

• Wants to possess
• Wants to acquire
• Wants more money, things, people
• Wants it now (can't wait)
• Wants it my way

ANGER

Core Want: Desire to strike out, to hurt and stop the other one — but with hesitation. May or may not actually strike out.

• Wants to strike out at others
• Wants to hurt others
• Wants to push away
• Wants to blame
• Wants revenge

PRIDE

Core Want: The wish to maintain the status quo. Unwilling to change or move — therefore, the wish to stop others from movement as they might pass us up.

• Wants to maintain the status quo
• Unwilling to change
• Wants to stop others from moving forward (fear of being passed up)
• Wants to prove I'm right
• Wants to be better than others

COURAGEOUSNESS

Core Want: The willingness to move out without fear or hesitation — to do, to correct, to change wherever needed. The willingness to let go, to move on.

• Wants to act — without fear, without hesitation
• Wants to correct, to change what's needed
• Wants to let go
• Wants to move on
• Wants to collaborate and get it done together

ACCEPTANCE

Core Want: No need to change anything. No judgments of good or bad. It just is and it's OK. It is beautiful as it is. I have and enjoy everything as it is.

• Doesn't want to change anything
• Wants to have and enjoy everything as it is
• No good or bad — everything is OK as it is
• Everything is already beautiful

PEACE

Core Want: I am — I am whole, complete, total unto my Self. Everyone and everything is part of my Self. It is all perfect.

• I am — whole, complete
• Everyone and everything is part of my Self
• Everything is perfect
• No more "wanting" — already fulfilled

I’m a pretty tense person in general, and I often get stuck during the releasing process because I have such a strong need to control my feelings.

Constantly reminding myself to relax has made a huge difference in how much joy I feel during the process and how effective releasing becomes.

Just by relaxing, a lot of that urge to control melts away, and I get stuck a lot less.

The simple tip is really just to constantly remind and allow yourself to relax during the process. Relax both the body and the mind. You don’t have to be completely relaxed; just relax as much as you reasonably can. A little relaxation, over time, goes a really long way.

e.g.

• (relax)
• What do I want (or don’t want) right now?
• (answer)
• (relax)
• Is this want (or don’t want) coming from wanting control, approval, or security?
• (relax)
• (answer)
• (relax)
• Could you?
• (relax)

It’s literally just reminding myself to relax over and over again. It’s so simple, kinda dumb, yet so effective.