mabuhay! mayroon pa po bang mga scholarship opportunities for incoming 3rd year students like me? palagi po kasing incoming 1st year lang ang nasa qualifications.
if you happen to know scholarships or even educational assistance, sana mashare niyo po. sobrang malaking tulong sa kagaya kong mukhang magtatransfer or magsastop because of financial constraints. thank you so much in advance 🥺
Problem/Goal: same po sa title
Context:
"What if knowing me more leads to loving me less?" That quote reflects me perfectly. I'm an illegitimate (19F), and I've always been afraid to share my real identity with anyone because I keep thinking that no one could truly accept me and love me unconditionally. I've always been a goal-oriented woman, and I've spent years pushing away people who were romantically interested in me. My friends often ask me when I'll finally have a boyfriend. I usually laugh it off and say that it's not my priority. Unbeknownst to them, there's a deeper reason behind it—I'm illegitimate, and I'm afraid to open my heart to someone who might eventually leave me, just like my father did.
Recently, I met someone (20M) who is genuinely kind, and somehow, I convinced myself to try lowering my walls. He comes from a complete, healthy, and loving family. He was raised by physically present and emotionally available Christian parents, unlike me. I was entrusted to my grandparents when I was only two months old because my stepfather couldn't accept me as his daughter, having been born out of wedlock. Since we're still in the "getting to know each other" stage, I'm hesitant to tell him about my real and complicated background. I'm afraid that I'm still not fully healed from my childhood wounds and that I might only hurt him because of my emotional baggage and unresolved issues. I really, really like this person, but I wonder if it's too soon, or if I'm simply not ready to let someone fully know me.
What should I do? Has anyone else struggled with being afraid that their past or family circumstances would make them unlovable? How did you find the courage to open your heart?