Trauma with my family
I started meditation a few months ago and my awareness increased, I can see more clearly what's happening in my head. And I noticed that my brother lives rent free in my head. He has done pretty shady things to me in the past. And even tho I still don't fully trust him, I don't think he's an actual threat.
The thing is that whenever I want to make a decision, an opinion, or do something in general, a little part in my mind thinks of him, like I need his validation or that his opinion weights more than mine for some reason. And I really want to get rid of this. I don't want to blame him for anything anymore. I just want to be free. And since I've read that meditation can also help with detachment and figuring things out, I'm happy to learn if I can peacefully solve this.
Sorry in advance for my english, and thanks for reading! :)