Tried looking up birds that live in my area in featherbase and found nothing. These were found near a hedge with trees and a creek behind it, in the same general area but at different times. First one is 8,5cm, second one 9cm and last 4cm. Not sure if these are from the same bird at all
I keep coming back to them to see how much progress I've made and how much better my life is now, but every time I do, I am hit with a dreadful and painful realization of how much I suffered, how ugly I was and how I didn't deserve any of that because I was just a teenage girl, but at the same time I've done so many unforgivable things. I just can't fathom that this is true and that's how my life was and is. How I spent 15 years of my life in isolation and agony and now it's just gone? That's it? I cannot fully describe what I'm feeling when I look at these pictures. For me it's generally very hard to let go of things and I keep everything from my past, but now I'm not sure I want to remember it ever again. I think they are eating away at me. Looking at those tired eyes and not fully understanding that this is really me. I wish none of it ever happened, I wish I never hurt anyone else. But now I can't do anything and I know there is no way I will ever forget. My memory is so bad yet I never forget anything. I want it out of my head and I want her dead. I'm trying so hard to change myself as much as possible so no one can recognize me as I was, but she will always be there, and maybe deleting those pictures will at least be a start for me to learn to let go. I think I've been through enough and deserve peace but now I have to convince myself of that. Please just tell me anything, I'm tired of dealing with all my struggles alone. There was nobody for me at my worst.
These are my 2nd and 3rd pinnings ever. So I am in no way a professional, but I'm proud of how these came out! I didn't think too much about spreading the wings to the maximum, I just put them in a position I liked I guess. Anyway, I think I have a magical freezer because the tortoiseshell on top spent several weeks in there (and a container), yet was completely ready for pinning when I got it out. Not complaining but I hope that doesn't mean it will rot later. They are definitely slightly assymetrical but I think it's barely noticeable from a distance?
I'm very lucky to live near a goldmine for dead insects, so both of these, plus the >10 other butterflies and beetles in that same container died from a natural cause. I'm surprised there's so many painted ladies on the side of the road, I found 5 already!
This is in Slovenia
I found this under a tree avenue next to my school, the surrounding area is mostly fields with and without crops, but there's also lots of planted trees and bushes that birds really love. I haven't seen a feather like this and couldn't find anything in featherbase.
Regarding size, it's a bit shorter than the length from the beginning of my palm to my pinkie. I thought it could be from a pigeon with a specific brown coloration but they rarely come here, only wood pigeons. My best guess is some kind of thrush, but, again, I couldn't find anything similar.
I thought maybe the fluff could be important because it looks kinda different from my other feathers
I'd be very happy to find out! Please help
Usually I can find the species I catch very quickly with iRecord Butterflies or google image search, but not this time. I figured it's from the genus Melitaea. Seems like it doesn't naturally appear in England so it's not on the app, the closest I could find is the glanville fritillary. This is in Slovenia