Triggered over the little things
Long story short, he used Onlyfans and Fansly as a part of betraying me(including paying these girls). After so many times of going over the same thing of how he is hurting me etc, this last time I found his secret Fansly account. The last girl he subscribed to this past time, her username has effected me which I didnt experience before. I won't post her username for her own safety but it included the word "Panda" in it. My favorite animal is Pandas. He knows this. I have many little collectibles of them and hes gifted me things panda related.
I think it crushed me that he would look at her username how much and not even think of me?
Now I have all my Panda things thrown in a drawer. I cant even look at them without thinking of thag girl and all I saw on her account.
I feel I sound ridiculous but it's what im experiencing.
Id like to move past this trigger and enjoy what I used to again. I just dont know how to.
He took away one of my favorite things that brought me joy in this way