u/Recent-Progress5707

about 2 months ago, smoked Weed i ordered online, It was a semi synthetic cannabinoid called THC-X, I rolled about a .1 Of weed mixed it with tobacco and went to smoke it outside by this bench, I only smoked half of half of the joint, One thing about me, Is that when it comes to thc, My tolerance is of that of a baby, I smoke an amount no more then the size of a match tip and it sends me spiralling into panic filled intense DPDR episodes. After i smoked it, When it started to hit, I knew i fucked up big time, Everything started to look like a 2D image, Everything looked like a GTA Ultra Realistic mod Mixed with a salvia trip, I felt as if i was seeing an edit,It kept getting stronger and stronger, My heart started beating out of my chest, I convinced myself I'm having a stroke and heart attack, And all of my 6 senses Got boosted to the max, I saw Vivid And surreal scenarios, Of me laying dead on the ground, Of news outlets saying "First marijuana overdose" And my face my name all over it, It got so intense, i realized my phone died, I little quirk with my phone is that if it dies and i turn it on but don't unlock it it won't Die out with the 1% battery countdown, I turned on my phone, Turning it on felt like it took 20 minutes, I hesitated, But it started getting even worse, So i called emergency services, I couldn't talk or speak, It took me a good 10-15 seconds to finish basic sentences, All i could say is that i feel like I'm dying, When they asked about symptoms i just couldn't get any words out, And just like that they didn't send anyone, Now i was committed to die on the ground, As i lay on the ground Waiting for my inevitable doom, It just all went away, From that day on, I've been getting almost identical episodes for the past 2 months, I've went to doctors, Psychiatrists And all they ever did was Diagnose me with a panic disorder and give me medications that only make it worse.

Does anyone have any tips on how to make this cycle finally come to an end?

So past few Days, I've been seeing an increase in episodes, Where I'm awake, Can still move very minimally, the thing is i get this painful ringing noise in my years that only goes away or subsides when i Get my shoulders as close to my head as i physically can. I even had an episode where i would walk out of my bed like a zombie Still clenching my shoulder to my head and opened my door only to see a monster and instantly get warped back into my bed. Then I proceeded to Fall out of my bed on purpose, Only when i touched the ground the world froze with this weird Effect and instantly got warped back into bed again. I already Have Noted, That the ringing noise is caused by involuntary Clenching of the muscles in my head that cause that Earthquake like sound, (Like for example when you try to push out Poop on a toilet really hard). Anyways after episodes when I've fully woken up, I get visual hallucinations, Like text that makes no sense in the middle of my vision, Or letters or even sometimes faces, Sometimes faces i haven't seen at all or sometimes faces of People I have seen, Often disturbing that go away in a few minutes.

Does anyone have ANY tips on how to make this stop or even a little easier for me

So, In this particular day, We were going on a school trip to go look at flowers at some woman's garden (Some real eastern European shit), And me,The stoner guy of the school and a close friend decided to smoke weed before the trip to make it more interesting,Now mind you, at this time I was still a complete beginner and had only smoked a few times, So we get to the spot, And the stoner friend pulls out the joints of all joints, Pure weed at least 2 grams in that joint, it was massive. I had never smoked pure weed before, Because in Europe, People always mix it with tobacco to make their weed last longer, So he lights the joint, Takes a few puffs, Hands it to my friend, he takes a few puffs, I take a big puff, I'm honestly still surprised to this day that I could resist the urge to cough. So I just take A lot of micro hits of this joint, Around the 2nd blunt rotation I start feeling it. The first thing I start feeling is just this wave of euphoria, Everything starts to look fake, Like I'm living in a simulation and everything is computer graphics. I continued smoking, biggest mistake of my life

After we start walking back to the school to go wait for the bus to take us to the trip, I sit on this bench, And I'm just Looking straight at nothing, I start to become couch locked on this shitty wooden stool outside our school. Then I start having these weird episodes, Where I would look at an object, And then look at another object and look at another object And every time I looked at an object it sounded like a gun loading and I would do the exact same movements twice to "solve" the puzzle, While my depth perception or literally any other perception of reality was completely void. My whole vision was zoomed and I was low-key locking the fuck in on that shit. Even managing to mess up on one of them. Now the problems started escalating when the bus finally came to pick us up, As soon as I stood up, Everything started to look like it was GTA gameplay with an Ultra realistic Texture pack, I'm surprised I could still manage to walk straight I mean I was Fucked, So I sit on the bus, Absolutely fucked out of my mind, One of my friends comes to sit next to me, He says "Damn you are fucked" or something along those lines. And I just stare at the ground completely locked unable to move "Keep in mind the people that I smoked weed with are in the bus with me" And I look up, And people's faces start distorting, Like it's a swirl effect you'd fuck with in 2012 in a mobile app. Then I start dry heaving, Ready to vomit, I stand up and My whole vision turns into a heavy psylocibin like trip, With colorful patterns, I felt like I was actively melting on the spot and that my brain was firing every single neuron all at once, When I get out of the bus I fall to the ground hands down on my knees, I vomit Heavily, And When I regain my vision and my hearing, I could hear my teacher come to me and help me up, I could not walk at all, She was Grabbing me by my shoulders helping me and then I hear my stoner friend say that I need water, So she helps me up "Good thing I started freaking out right as we were at our school trips destination. This woman from the house comes out and takes me to this Patio outside her house, There's another guy sitting there and I mean I'm just sitting there, Looking at nothing again and She brings me water I take maybe a few sips and then a different school worker comes to pick me up and take me back to the school. Where I was picked up by my mother and taken home. I immediately fell face forward Into my bed and Fell asleep almost Instantly.

Ever since that day, When I smoke weed, I get distinct effects apart from anyone else that i did not get prior to this incident:

1.severe Derealisation, Even with lower doses, The trees look like 2d images, Everything far away looks like a 2d image, I get this like FOV increase when I smoke weed, It's really weird and don't have the right words to explain it. Everything looks like a video game with ultra realistic graphics and everything just feels preprogrammed

2.Moderate-stronG Depersonalisation

Feeling Like I'm just an observer, Watching Somebody else's life

3. Severe dejavu, Accompanied by death anxiety

Have you ever heard of this combo?

When I get dejavu, It feels like, Oh my gosh, These are the last moments until I die, Like I saw this specific moment before I was born and A voice told me "This is what you'll see before you die"

It can be terrifying,

I couldn't find it using any music recognition software known to existence

The song plays from 2:52 To 3:52

I'm Assuming its a Copyright Free library track, but i'm having such bad luck finding it