Feeling conflicted on medication route…
I finally went to see a psychiatrist after I’ve been struggling for about a year and a half. I went off of medications about 3 years ago after trying SO many and having a terrible time. I was so numb on SSRI’s. I had no sex drive and gained a lot of weight (which was also due to other lifestyle factors). I am very apprehensive about getting on this new medication, Fluvoxamine. I have been very anti-SSRI for a couple of years now and was actually microdosing for a while and experimenting with psychedelic therapy to process trauma and try to get to the root of it all. I definitely did see major improvements but recently, especially since being in a newish relationship, the OCD has gotten really really bad. I don’t feel like I’m based in reality most of the time. I have felt very paranoid in all of my relationships which is causing me to feel even more isolated with a mental illness that is already isolating. The thoughts feel debilitating and I’ve become extremely avoidant and drained and constantly feel tense and on edge. I have nightmares almost every night. I can never relax. I am considering ketamine therapy as an alternate solution to being on an SSRI. I feel like through all of this I have become very depressed. I am hoping someone could offer me some advice or encouragement even. I am young and want to be able to live my life and feel happy and safe.