u/Reciperatio

Ok. I need help. Almost 50 days in and I’m really close to giving up. Have not been at this point before since I quit. Crazy and surreal, spiralling real fast. I’m desperate to keep the quit. I hate being addicted but I also hate what quitting does to me mentally at this point. I know it can take up to three or even more months for everything to be recalibrated again. That seems such an undoable amount of time and as much as I tell myself that this is healing, it sure as hell don’t feel like it.

OMG. I’m having a hard time.. day 25 and suddenly my anxiety spikes through the roof. So far I’ve been very motivated and I planned this quit for some time, more up for it than ever before. But how on earth is it that today I’m totally feeling like crap and like, “I can’t do life without smoking”…? How is this possible almost four weeks in …

Day 22, walking off PMDD symptoms. Crying, experiencing so much loss and anger. First two weeks of quitting smoking were ok, third a bit harder and now with full (expected) hormonal idiocy I’m having a hard time. I have to wait this out for at least nine days, do what I usually do but with extra compassion. Feels good to walk and also lonely. Can’t think straight now, the only thing is that I know I HAVE to reach out to prevent myself from slipping. Thanks for reading.

Asking because I’m almost down to two tablets a day and I’m really wondering how it will be. I’m two weeks into my quit and although I’m still obsessed with all of it, I’m really good compared to previous ct quits. Working on my new routines, celebrating every milestone and working those dopamines. Wouldn’t call it a walk in the park, but I’m not a depressed little mess and that’s awesome!

Tomorrow is the day. Im quite scared, like so many I have a history of failing over and over again, when it comes to quitting smoking. BUT I have been quit for +/- five years before, so I should believe I can do it again.

What’s the best advise you have? What got you through these agonising moments? Any specific tactics? Thanks so much!