Day One, Square One
Major relapse on Saturday, lost the most I have ever lost in a single session, woke up the nedt morning and knew to a certainty that I needed to make a change (though I have known that many times before).
I am actually very fortunate because through savings and investments I built up a huge safety net for myself, but I realize now I mostly built that safety net in the single five year period where I couldnt gamble. Ever since I started gambling again I've just been treading water, staying afloat but wasting time.
There are so many things to look forward to, even I am getting married next year, and despite everything I still have the resources and opportunities to have a comfortable life.
It is not a financial problem it is a mental or spiritual one. Ive spent years lighting up parts of my brain that are unsafe to light up, and now I need reprogramming. I will never be able to get back my brain but I have to try.
Steps taken -
Self-excluded from all platforms
Installed Gamban on all decives with subscription until 2029
Uninstalled apps and brokerages
Going to try really hard this time