u/Red_Anzo

I'm currently working on a cyberpunk like story and world. Though one where it's 50% cyberpunk 2077, Neuromancer, Blade Runner, DREADD and Virtual Light, yet with influences of Helltaker and Ultrakill by including demons and angels. I've coined this along the lines of "Occult Cyberpunk" and taken elements from the few "Tolkein meets Blade Runner". Magic and cybernetics.

Is there anything I should consider aside from the obvious when fleshing out and crafting a cyberpunk world?

I'm currently working on a cyberpunk like story and world. Though one where it's 50% cyberpunk 2077, Neuromancer, Blade Runner, DREADD and Virtual Light, yet with influences of Helltaker and Ultrakill by including demons and angels. I've coined this along the lines of "Occult Cyberpunk" and taken elements from the few "Tolkein meets Blade Runner". Magic and cybernetics.

Is there anything I should consider aside from the obvious when fleshing out and crafting a cyberpunk world?

I was playing some TF2C with a friend... and, I got competative and began to not enjoy my time, especially as they got more kills than me and I was getting frustrated by it. And when I left, they messaged me (gonna paraphrase as I don't remember fully) "good game" and I just responded with "yeah bye" then added "good game..." and they just responded with "thx" and somehow that annoyed me.

It's silly to be acting such a way over a game, I get that, and I'm annoyed at myself for even getting too into the game and just wanting to at least do equal/better than my friend. But games are meant to be fun, a friendly competition here and there but... and this person has said that we are friends and when I asked if he wanted to play on Friday he said yes, but he likes to respond in simple responses. Peeps have told me not to take it personally, and I try I really do, but sometimes it feels like they don't care, like tonight with that response, and yet they messaged me in the game saying "please don't be so negative" (reading that back makes me hate myself).

I'm at a weird point in my life. And I've been reflecting on things.

A thing I am not good at (or too good at) is knowing when I am wrong. I have autism, not saying that as an excuse but to explain how I think but it's relevant. My parents, whether they'd admit it or not have mollycoggled me too much and hasn't always trusted my opinion, I get it was hard on them to raise me, but although I have autism I am still capable, I even feel to this day they treat me like a child. What didn't help is in my family there was always a "rule for some, rule for others" thing going on. I won't lie as I have gotten older, I resent and hate my family as it just seemed I was expected to admit my flaws and faults but never anyone else, if I did, they'd get angry and if I got angry when they did it to me, they'd get angry at me getting angry.

My family isn't abusive. They have their flaws yes, but physically they have never hit me, mentally they have't tormented me in extreme ways. There are good qualities to them, but it seems those moments are rare and I wish they'd show more often.

But lets just say, I never want to admit if something is wrong with me. Mainly as for most of my life it seems that's just always the case, people see my flaws while shielding their own, and I hate it, so much so that I shield my flaws and never let anyone in apart from friends. I love my friends more than my own family at times, and in a way my friends are a family that I can go to, I can talk about these things and instead of disregarding it, they empathise and talk to me, they actually understand me and don't try to deflect what I am feeling.

And if I have done something wrong, I want them to tell me even if I'll hate hearing it, I would rather like to be told I only have a day to live than give some sentimental cock and bull story. Ik this is a bit of an extreme example but I hope my point gets across.

I still wanna be friends with this guy, and I do just want to play TF2C with him not caring how many points we have and have a friendly challenge without getting all angry. I love him, and it hurts that I could be horrible and mean to one of my friends.

(There is more to this. But I feel like this is enough for now, I'll be happy to provide more if asked for.)