u/Relevant-Ad16

Hi everyone. First-time poster, so please be patient! I could use some help. For the last around 3 years, I've felt really dissociated. I'm young, turning 18 in two months, but have had an overarching feeling of not feeling real, present in my body, or truly happy. I feel like I'm not an active participant in my own life. I've struggled with anxiety, depression, an ED, etc., and am in therapy and recovery as well as being put on SSRIs about 5 months ago. Any advice on how to become the driver in my own life again? I just wanna feel real.