u/RelevantBig9043

Eek!!!!!

Imposter syndrome is so lovely especially since I'm stuck in repression most of the time and I'm very familiar with apathy. Why can't these brainworms leave me alone it's like I have a little trump in my head.

I'm dreading school so much. I'm so worried I might get outed. I really don't want rumours spreading either and I have a "friend" who if he finds out might out me to my parents and I'm too scared to try and convince them not to be Transphobic. I don't like yelling. But I know I'm strong and will pull through and survive. Totally cis btw.

At this point I've really come to consider my boy name as a deadname. I love boymoding yay my mental health is definitely gonna be worse once school starts . I'm dreading it soooooo much.

Just can't and don't want to :3

Estrogenuinely all the effects of estrogen and progesterone sounds so mmmmmmmm I'm smiling just thinking about what would happen if I took some for the rest of my life

Polandball led to me discovering countryhumans which led me discovering genderbend stuff which led to me discovering gender swap hypnosis Videos which is like the thing that really start questioning.

When will I learn I'm a girl. I'm loosing sleep over this.

I/me/myself is such a peak song. My friend shared it with me awhile ago and it was the first song I added to my liked songs on Spotify.

I have to on a hike probably and it's hot no dysphoria hoodie make feel better 😭

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I hope everyone is doing better than myself. This is so taxing on me.

Source for the art. This isn't mine: https://x.com/AartiPham34098/status/1859464460009865721?t=js96INicXVYuZmYIrYC7Sg&s=19

Trying out a new nickname :3

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY I'M CRYING SO MUCH RN

I hate my chest and my "thingy" and body hair

Source for the art because I real should do that. Always support artists: https://www.tumblr.com/ikannsenn11111/822137363076612096?source=share

Not my art I'm not this good

God this girl is dying inside this boy's body

Imposter syndrome and dysphoria make a terrible combo

🏳️‍⚧️Trans flag cuz I'm probably trans but brain says I'm faking this

Still cis tho! Totally didn't cry tears of joy when my friends said that I'm a girl

My emotions are so screwed up

But what if I'm faking it? What if I am a boy? I don't wanna be a boy. I hate being a boy. Somebody just inject me with Estrogen already. I wanna be a girl but what if I don't deserve it? What if I don't deserve to be a girl?

Update: was not expecting to see ppl speaking Swedish on my post. I don't speak Swedish just wasn't expecting it

What is happening?

I know it's the truth so why can't I accept it? Why do I keep myself bound in chains of masculinity? Why am I doing this? It hurts so much to be him and Eleanor feels like a she's an ocean away.

I dunno I'm very scatter brained and tired rn and can't think of anything else to put here.

This is crazy fucking weird and I don't know what to do. I'm doubting everything. I'd just like to know how often this happens for other people.

I'm also just feeling worthless rn and hating myself

I had to go to church today unfortunately. it makes imposter syndrome a million times worse. If only I had good parents. They're not terrible but as you could imagine they won't be supportive. Sucks soooooooooooooo much. I don't wanna be their son, I wanna be their daughter.

My friend finally got me to download Zenless zone zero and holy shit I've never felt so much genvy. I'm getting so many ideas for cosplays rn. I never was that interested in cosplay before but now OMG.

Unfortunately my dysphoria has been getting worse and I am starting to think I might have depression which sucks.

So can a girl get some GGD to help make her feel better. Pwetty pwease :3

Somebody pretty pls forcefem me

It sucks soooooooooooooo much. Why couldn't I have been a girl. I look at my driver's license and it says M and I hate that it hurts so much to see that letter. Dysphoria has also really been taking a toll on my mental health so that's fun. I'm glad I'm autistic it makes masking this a lot easier. Which I have to do because the day hell freezes over is the day my mom stops being a bigot. I'm so glad it's still summer break where I live going to school makes me feel so dysphoric. Somehow I still deny this even tho I've literally told some of my friends I'm trans but for some reason I can't accept it now even tho I want to. I'm so tired and brain is being too weird. I hope everyone is doing better than me.

Gonna finish said pizza now. None for you. it's mine! My precious!

Update: I ate the rest of the pizza right after making this post, it was very yummy 😋

Pwedy pls :3 I want to burn all my body hair

update: the imposter syndrome worms are fighting back and I'm fucking miserable. gawd I am so useless and worthless