u/Remarkable-Bat-1323

Completed my end sem exams a week back , gonna graduate from a good college but na branch lo placements baledhu ekkado chinna guilt and fear ( tbh i didn't get good opportunities here) and a high fever due to bad weather deeni valla anxiety stress ekkuva ayyay , linkedin open cheste hands shiver ayyevi.

One day before my final exam I

Apologized to my parents but they were like chill ekkuva stress tiskuntunnav and they were very supportive about jobs.

I frequently call my sister and she rants abt her life I sometimes share abt mine and i said abt the job stress , vomited all my negative thoughts on her and even said I was emotional and apologized to them .

My father is a good guy textbook wise non smoker non drinker non egoistic non misogynistic too ( even his movie taste leader,anand, fidaa, athadu etc choosinave choostu untadu)

Teenage lo konchem pathi ra mari ila undakudadu anukunna but growing up I looked up to him and thought i should at least be half a man as him.

But when my sis (sibling) got to know that I apologized to my father and mother she couldn't take it and dropped the bomb

My father SA'd my cousin 2 years back

My cousin is close to me more like a sibling.

Iam a kind of person who distances from people if they slut shame or catcalls or objectifies women .

The only hero I had in my life isn't a hero, tiskolekapoya asalu idhi real aa fake aa , ela ra , enduku, she's like a daughter to him ala ela , she's not even 18 , evari kosam job chesi sukapedadam anukuntunna , enduku chaduvutunna evarini Paisal adugutunna around 2 decades nunchi unna life ki meaning ledhu anipichindi

Ivanni final exam roju mind lo tirigai

Should I get a job and flee this home and just send them money ( my mom isn't that great here at first she cried after she got to know this and confronted my father but later she victim blamed my cousin ik she's misogynistic but ee range ani telidu).

Then michael movie reviews and comments choosa

Michael Jackson gurinchi personal ga many people don't know but they defend him by saying he isn't a predator, but nenu around 2 decades nunchi telisina na father predator ante nammaboya if this allegation on my father is fake ( just 0.1% chance unna) I can't face myself.( This is just my coping mechanism).

But at EOD he was a good father but not a great human but i don't have a necessity to be a good son if the allegation is true but money is money ippati varaku ichindi and invest chesindi na paina I should pay him back and I'll leave one day.