What to do with these feelings
My sister was with my dad yesterday at the hospital and said He said he feels horrible. The worst he's ever felt. He does say he wants to die but trying to tell the hospital how low he is and not to let him die as he lays in his hospital bed unable to get out of it.
He’s 75 and before April of this year had never been hospitalized a day in his whole life.
I don’t even know how to face this. How to help. What to do. He has such severe colitis that he hasn’t eaten barely anything more than a bite or 2 a day for the last 3 weeks. He was going to the bathroom with lots of blood almost immediately after ingesting anything. The gastrointestinal dr finally stopped being an asshole and allowed the oncologist to get him started on the Infliximab on 8/11. He has to feel getting blood transfusions because his hemoglobin drops below 8. He’s still in the hospital because it’s the safest for him with his needs and situation.
His scans said that almost all of the cancer is gone but a few spots and all of those are smaller by at least 50%.
He’s beating cancer but diarrhea is going to kill him?
Any insight. Encouragement. Anything. Because him saying that and being this sick has made me nearly incapable of daily functioning. And I feel helpless and selfish for feeling like this.