My boyfriend cheated on me because he said it's the only way out
My boyfriend of 3 years cheated on me yesterday, the relationship was toxic to say the least and we both just couldnt let go and kept trying to fix it, but i was the one holding on more and harder, lately we were finally on great terms yesterday we were so in love on a video call but 2h later he went and cheated on me and ghosted me for 2 days when i found out while cheating on me without giving me answers
His excuse was that he couldnt forgive me for what happened last which was a problem caused by hhim but i took responsibility woth him but he ended up making it entirely my fault also blamed it on how things were off lately and we werent meant to be together when he was discussing marriage few days ago
I am so attached to that man and can only feel what he tells me to feel and now i feel like i could have prevented it if i acted better
I am feeling terrible
This is not the first time he cheated and the first time was for the same reason I need more objective opinions on this that may help me wake up because i am so stuck being the blamed one and i still do it to myself