u/Resident-Brain7708

I'm homeless with my dog. Dropped my wallet yesterday and, it had $20 that I was going to use to get him and me some food. Along with all my other cards and ID. I know it's unlikely I'm going to find it again. I just needed $6 for a small bag of gravy train. if anyone can possibly spare it. Thanks! Don't know if I'm formatting this right. I just choose the handout flair because I truly don't know if I can even repay this. Or what's going to happen next.

It got to the point where I can't feed both of us anymore. And I try to feed him more than I do myself mostly, but I have no energy to work and when I do I'm extremely fatigued. I live on the streets and I do outside jobs that pay daily when I find them, so I can keep him with me. And I always felt some kind of guilt for keeping him with me in general. But he's everything to me and been with me through the worst parts of my life. And this is it.

Idk what I was thinking. I got kicked out at 18 like a lot of other people. I'm 19 now and just so tired of bumming off my friend for food and asking him if I can stay over sometimes. And especially when it's a no. It just feels like I'm letting my life slip and wasting more time. I also can't work a regular job at the moment because I have nowhere to leave him. I know I'm hindering myself. But idk what else to do. I starve and try to stay in the shade for the most part. But living like this for so long is making me question life and if what I'm doing is wrong.

I can't take him to the vet because I make $80 at most on a good day and end up spending most of it because I'm paid daily. I can't get new clothes, or eat a real meal everyday. Or even have the confidence to start my social life back. Something's wrong with me. I tried cutting myself the other night and it made me realize that I can't keep doing this. If I go through with this. It would tear me apart. But it seems like I have to. I'm thinking of joining the air force and coming out a better man. It's just been so depressing living like this and seeing all the people you knew getting farther in life. I might wait until August to make a decision. But I'm miserable and I'm sure my dog is too. And I hate feeling all of this on me.