Who's your future spouse? (Not for all)
Pile 1 – 🍓
Pile 2 – 🧎♂️
This was so funny LMAO just pick one that catch your eyes the first time you glance at it, don't overthink
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Pile 1 — 🕸
Pile 2 — 🗯
Pile 3 — 🖼
Edit i just put it in the desc instead of comment, this is specific it might not be for you if it doesnt resonate
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Pile 1 — 🕸
They have no intention to move toward you, at least for now. They are discouraged because there seems to be a conflict or issue/argument that happened between you guys that disrupt the harmony, and they don't know how to fix or repair this. They are avoiding from doing any sorts of movement or communication from you, one of you either them or you, are starting to realize and decide that this connection is failing and decided to pull back and let the chapter close. They seem to have this fear of commitment and putting efforts and hardwork in even though they could see this leading to a bright future and opportunity. I'm getting two group here, some of you guys might relate more about this person being confused and having unclear thinking leading them to choose to not step into this responsible and stepping up energy, while for the other group this person might actually exchange some mean/dismissive words with you and thinking that their choice and decision is the ultimate way and doesnt want to consider your side of things and feeling and are being controlling. There is another 2 group here, for some of you, you could call them out of how unfair this is and how its not right and the way they are acting is reckless/impulsive you might even ask them to think again and they feel foolish and incapable because of it, for the other group you might not call them out specifically about their actions or wether its right or wrong, you just says that its unfair on your side or at least feel unfair and instead of doing something about it, they seem to rebel against it and hesitant to take a leap of faith. For the under current energy they seem to prioritize their fake inner stability and harmony by sweeping things under the rug.
Pile 2 — 🗯
This person have feelings for you. They seem hesitant to make a move toward you because they are trying to reflect and think about what they are going to say or they could be analyzing you. I'm getting that theres 3 group of people here , the one that is friend with this person, the one that just get to know this person and the one where this person came back into your life after fumbling, they are enjoying your presence and their mind is actively thinking and excited of the possibility of where this might go next. However they are a bit conflicted, this person seems to have low self-esteem, if its a friend this person might have this fear that you don't feel the same way as them and that you are not interested in building something more, if this is the person that came back into your life they seems very guarded because of what happened in the past either its your mistake or their mistake, if its their mistake they are judging themselves pretty harshly and they might even think that you are no longer having this soft spot for them. This person also seem to be exhausted/tired of constantly analyzing and waiting of where this might go they seem to have this fear or assumption that maybe this is something that is not mean to last or it doesnt mean much to you and they get pretty sad about it, if this is a person that came back into your life they are afraid that you might not wanting to rebuild the bond with them. They are also measuring and self reflecting if this is what they want and if this will lead to something long-term. This person want something long-term. For the under current energy they are trying to find clarity and are constantly looking for it.
Pile 3 – 🖼
This person's mind is clouded. This person seems to believe that they could not meet your expectation and they seem of having a hard time of even understanding what your expectation and need is. They reflected and took time to look at themselves and have this harsh realization that they feel like they are not ready or incapable/not enough or they failed you. They are moving to this numbing phase, you either stop giving them chances or they believe that the door should or is closed, they could also be justifying closing this because they dont want the same toxic cycle to repeat, if they doesnt say this to you yet, they are thinking of it. They feel like you deserve better than this and you deserve someone who is able to give you what you want, and they feel small and defeated in comparison, they wish they could be with you but they also wish that you could find your own happiness even if its with someone else. They don't feel motivated to continue or move through this, and they are actively numbing and suppressing their feelings. The under current energy is that they are either trying to feel better or they are feeling immense regret about themselves.
They are avoidant, we broke up then they offered me friendship just to keep things "harmonious" been sending me mixed signals and when i asked them abt their feelings they say that they have none even when their actions doesnt match 💀 and they r trying to get into therapy bc they admit they dont want to be emotionally neglectful or abusive BUT THEY DIDNT SAY IT WAS FOR ME OR TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY or anything, I WAS HAPPY CRYING IN TEARS BECAUSE IM REALLY GLAD THEY WANTED TO HEAL (before this i encouraged them to heal so many times), anyway they lashed out to me because apparently their brain create this weird pressure just bc i was using the chat to vent/process my emotions because i still had feelings, i didnt ask them to reply or anything and they somehow interpreted it as pressure and everything and trying to accuse me of wanting them to reply and then later they apologized to me, they keep justifying their distance "its best we arent close given i could make you really upset" "then i think we shouldnt be friends at least not until you have overcome your attachment" "i did love you, im not willing to hurt you by being with you" and then later when i stopped wanting to be their friends i took my power back and dissect their entire attachment pattern and i told them that the problem is not closeness, its their behavior, i told them that its easier to justify their leave than to step up and take responsibility to fix their behavior and confront their fears, i was also mad because they dismiss my love just to an attachment. So now we are in no contact
They just became sooo different only in the span of 1\~2 month,MIND YOU THIS IS THE SAME GUY THAT WAS VERY NEEDY WITH ME ASKING ME TO SLEEP IN A HIGH PITCH TONE,OPENED UP TO ME FULLY ABT HIS ENTIRE LIFE HISTORY(im the second person he ever opened up in his entire life) TOLD ME THEY FEEL SAFE WITH ME, THE SAME PERSON THAT REFUSE TO SLEEP AT 2 ALMOST 3 AM UNLESS I FEEL BETTER (despite him being a very very busy person with multiple responsibility) they became very cold after like 2 months almost 3 of no contact,,they ghosted me and i cutted them off BUT later when we reconnected they told me that they were reading my vent the entire time for the whole 3 months and even pinned my chat to the top, i was venting in that because i was having a hard time to find closure i didnt know he was reading it the entire time 💀 especially in that vent i was venting about my worries and i was pouring in a lot of love and care i couldn't express before,i wasn't even mad at him or throwing tantrum or anything, and i really dont believe they are detached it looks more like a deactivation process even when i asked them question if they still want me in their life and if they do have feelings they keep contradicting themselves, to manage my reactions. And i told them like i just refuse to recognize this version of them BECAUSE THEY REALLY DID give me trauma from their actions and all of it was selfish, i told them that they are better than this, and i told them i wont come back as a "friend", the door is open but it's only if they decide to pursue this and is actively trying to change and take responsibility, i also dont like how he tried so hard to control everything and deciding "oh this is the best for us" when I KNOW what is the best for me. As a result from their ghosting and the switch up i had to deal with insane emotional whiplash and having a hard time reconciling both version of him, i also feel discarded/abandoned bc they were reading my vent the entire time yet still decided to "let me go" and stay silent the entire time/not giving any closure when they knew i was struggling, even when they knew i was still attached the entire time (couldnt even admit that they did let go, they didnt look like someone who is detached) and the switch up was just so insane, like if i can describe its like, first i got abandoned, then i got discarded and pushed away thats how horrible it is, the damage was big. The first time we had an issue when we were together, he begged me to not go and he apologized multiple time, there wasnt any big conflict or argument or anything back then, back when we were together and even when i got ghosted there was never a time where i actually blew up or became aggressive/angry with them.
They still owe me responsibility for the damage although its not an obligation, apology was just the bare bare minimum.
I legit feel like the community is not the same anymore like 6 years ago, people back then was so supportive, friendly and they were so simple, i remember like the times where people would just simply listen to subs without overcomplicating things, even encouraging each other and the classic stay hydrated encouragement, people would celebrate each simple results no matter how big or small it is, they also respect the sub makers a lot. Now looking at the current community, its totally ruined, a bunch of argument about whos right whos wrong, about limiting belief, when back then people would just simply encourage and lift others when they notice some kind of limiting belief, but now when those limiting belief shows up in someone there would be an argument instead of resolve and support, people back then i think barely even question which sub works or not there was so much trust, but now its ruined, people are constantly hyper analyzing, doubting, spiraling about which is good which is bad, which is the most righteous "way" , the drama with sub makers and random accusation is louder than the subliminal itself
I feel like The sense of togetherness is gone
Since you guys are here, im gonna share my subliminal youtube channel, its run by me and my friend! click here
Anyway if anyone want the link dm me, since i cant post it
I don't know if you guys can see the difference or not and probably is skeptic bc of the angle lol, but i can see the difference in the mirror, my jaw is getting more narrow, i have only been listening around 2-3 days (my own subs)link to my sub, i will replace this later once i upload it on my youtube channel
People are salty because i set a boundary and don't want to give them my formula, like ?? I have the right to not give my formula excuse me???...thats my hardwork and rights, i even gave the sub for free
Also lowkey idk whats wrong with ppl in this community, it wasnt this bad lol, i have only recently came back like after 6 years, the affirmation is hidden because i don't want people to steal my works or copy me, which is my right, if you are skeptical, no one ask you to use it, most sub maker i know doesnt even show their affirmations, and if they do, theres nothing wrong with it. Dont drag drama here, grow up. 🫶 i dont owe anyone anything, its my work, i made it, i have the right to show or not show it to anyone and if you harrass me i will block you ♡
its like asking a random artist you are scrolling by and ask them for reusable sketch without any watermark and then later ask them "why are you gatekeeping your sketch so much like no one else has draw them?", fortunately even if you keep pressing me and minimize my work, i won't ask for your approval or validation. Scroll away.
I didn't take the pic before and after so i have nothing to share here lol BUT I AM VERY FAMILIAR with my face, i listened to psyche subs, yesterday and today, and for today i listened to it while sleeping, around 4 hours ish, its a playlist btw. One of the sub i listen is for v line chin/jawline, after i woke up from my sleep i went to the toilet to wash my face, fyi my jaw/chin is like a bit flat if that make sense, but as soon as i look at the mirror i notice my jaw/chin getting a bit narrower??? Lmfao anyway if i take some pics or have a very MASSIVE result i will post it here
Come come and tell me anything is welcomed
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Sketch:
Headshot — $12
Bust Up — $15
Waist Up — $17
Knees Up — $25
Full Body — $30
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Bust Up — $25
Waist Up — $27
Knees Up — $30
Full Body — $40
Add-On Background — $7
Full rendered art (anime/semi-realism):
Headshot (Anime Style) — $25
Bust Up (Anime Style) — $30
Waist Up (Anime Style) — $35
Knees Up (Anime Style) — $40
Full Body (Anime Style) — $55
Headshot (Semi Realism Style) — $27
Bust Up (Semi Realism Style) — $33
Waist Up (Semi Realism Style) — $37
Knees Up (Semi Realism Style) — $45
Full Body (Semi Realism Style) — $60
Add-on
Drawn Simple Background — $10
Complex Detailed Background — $15
Color Plain Background — $1
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