The church made me lose my friend.
Hi for context I'm 18f. I'm not a very active member anymore just because I was able to beg my boss to schedule my work on the same times that our church meetings are. None of the ladies and relief society ever really liked me and all of them sit as far away from me as possible the only person I'll sit with me or even talk to me is my mom. A couple years ago my mom accidentally revealed in one of her testimonies that I was gay and all the adult women have kind of avoided me since then. There was this one older lady who was a convert and she always sat in the back with me when everyone would avoid me. She is also the only one who texts me and asks me how I'm doing. So I'm at work today and my mom calls me freaking out because said older woman got in a fight with the bishop on fast and testimony meeting. We got a new bishop and my old Bishop was actually pretty nice but this new bishop is a little strange. So my friend she was giving a talk and the bishop stopped her in the middle and told her that what she was talking about was inappropriate and not for church. Mind you all she was talking about is how God made her love herself dispite her internalized racism. She's the only black woman in our entire congregation. Deficient called her out publicly and scolded her in front of everyone which she responded to negatively. Apparently the woman who gave a talk right before her was talking about her miscarriage so it was obvious that dark subject matter wasn't the problem. But because of the fight she refuses to come back to church which is fine it's good for her that she's seeing the life but now when I'm dragged to Church events that don't go inside with my work schedule I'm going to be all alone again. I know it's really selfish but I'm going to miss her.