Need some honest opinions on current campaign drama, advice, and etc.
I honestly don’t know where to post this, but I need an outside perspective on this. Real names changed for privacy.
Currently my friends and I (3/5 are DM’s for over 8 yrs) are playing a 5th Edition campaign, I am feeling a bit frustrated/unexcited about it, and I could use some advice on how to go from here.
For some context,
3 years ago, our GM decided we would play a low horror and adventure with an emphasis on roll-playing RPG campaign from a kickstarter she was sponsoring.
During our most recent sessions, when trying to save a man’s father from prison, we came across a horde of cannibals, child mutilation, and she was very descriptive with the gore. When I asked how this wasn’t considered horror and said I was very uncomfortable at the table, she said “it wasn’t as bad as some of the books I’ve read”. She also said it’s our fault it’s so dark because of the choices we made. When asked what choices? As we only do jobs that help people in the city, she said that was the problem, but didn’t explain further.When building our characters I asked how we could create/modify our characters to suit this new world (and for RP purposes), and she said it didn’t matter since our characters were likely to die before 3rd level anyways, so I went basic so it would fit with any world (human bard, left family for adventure). Despite my best efforts to role-play during our breaks (like tell a short quip about uncle “Tito” or something) our GM has started making fun of me for it and says it’s “just interesting” when asked why she is making fun of me.
For over a year our GM has talked about killing off one of our player’s characters (Kit). In fact she openly said, “I could just fudge the numbers on an encounter so he dies.” For the longest time I thought she was kidding or not serious about it. Then a month ago she told me she doesn’t like him as a person, NOT AS A PLAYER, as a person. When we asked why? What did he do? Is there something specific he’s doing that he could do differently? NOPE, apparently it’s a feeling, which is why she refuses to talk to him about it.
Then, last session he died, to be fair it was partially due to his own choices. However, it felt really fishy because of how quickly he died. When I later asked our GM, she admitted she fudged the numbers to kill his character. In hopes he would “make a better one next time”.one of our players is a newby, and our dm gets upset at him for not memorizing all his abilities and understanding this world. As a GM, even I have a hard time understanding this new world (despite my note taking) because when I ask for clarification she refuses and she frequently forgets to mention important details then gets mad at us when we didn’t know those important details.
I honestly thought my memory was getting worse, so I started spending extra time writing notes and eventually realized what was happening after another player accidentally recorded part of our game.
Overall, I dread our game nights now. maybe there is something I’m missing? Is there an explanation for this? Am I being over sensitive? What can I do?
Any advice or suggestions will help at this point.