A really really bad trip.
Hey guys! So i had the most awful trip i ever had so far and i just wanted to share experience as it does really help me thanks for anyone who reads this!
So before i proceed with story i would like to share a bit of background.
So me and my 3 friends managed to finally be in same place in same time since despite living in same place originally now we are just either in other city or some in different country. So we decided we going to do some drugs, 3 of them decided to go for MDMA and i always do shrooms.
After getting all of it and getting to apartment where we are suppose to be i realized how bad the idea was to do shrooms there. Why you ask? Small place, they turned off light, loud techno music, tv with not the nicest visuals on it, my friend made some flashing light effect in the room and they all looked drugged af. i sat there one hour debating should i take it and i did push myself as we were all here ( i know awful idea).
So trip starts, i start to feel it in my head pretty fast which is surprising, it starts off pretty okay i am listening to some music video and watch a cool video of the music and i remember this felt really good my entire body was feeling it all colors were moving i really felt every color every sound. However thats about only good part.
Soon i realize how intensive it is as only 20-30 min into it everything is vibrating all colors are moving and it hit me in head pretty hard. I dont know how to explain it but i just know when its going to be intense i just feel my head changed.
First sign of how bad its going to be is i when i look a ty friend his face is disorted blurred out, his skin is pale, his toes are missing and are blended in leg which is just so weird. his body propotortions just start being weird his face is being more blurred out.
Next thing that happens is shrooms start to fuck with my weight problem ( i am a skinner guy that has been trying to gain weight) i start to feel way more skinny than i am, like i am talking skeleton level skinny and its making me more and more anxious (i am anxious about it when sober as well) my hand start to feel really small i can feel my hip bones and its just an awful feeling really bad one.
Same thing happens with my teeth (i have some issues there), it makes me very aware of my teeth and every issue that ii have there i feel it really intense
Shrooms are just fucking with every insecurity i have at this point, anxiety out of roof, i am starting to see bad shit mostly some kinda eyes, colors are more agressive my friend faces are disorted and blurred out.
At this point panick starts to set in and i just feel i am losing control in my head.
Small other things that i remember that i was feeling as well at this point: i heard someone talking like through radio for couple of seconds, wave of energy like wind would hit my body and i would really feel it like wind, zoom outs , some kinda glitch style effects.
I am trying to calm down and try to just ride with it but it's impossible my anxiety is just there i can feel it but worse thing is it didnt even start yet.
What happens next is really first time i ever experienced this and it was terrifying.
I start to feel hole in my stomach growing larger and larger, my body is just shrinking despite already skinny, i dont know how to describe this really but it was strange as hell i was lying in bed trying to focus on something else but as i would close my eyes i would be meet with really bad looking entities that were just straight up terrifying, it felt like i was in another dimension when i would close my eyes and this what i could only describe as demonic looking entities were just watching , its hard to remember here everything exactly but i remember how couple of them looked like, usually eyes with legs and multiple sets of teeths.
I started to feel like my body is dissolving, like its dissapeiring and i was having harder and harder time breathing at this point i am in full panic mode i am trying to sit up drink water which tastes like everything else but water, i am trying to walk i cant walk straight i am trying to lay down i am meet with very bad looking things, my friend gave me headphones to focus on something that didnt help either.
Couple of things to note here as well, i was starting to lose sense of everything like most basic things days of week, purpose of something so basic like glass was just strange concept to me just completely gone out of touch with reallity
Eventually it reached to the point where i felt like i was just laying in my bed and slowly feeling my body being dissapering, i had some really awful visions of awful things happening to my body and here is where i got really really scared as i did have bad trips in past but i have never reached this point. i always knew okay its bad but it will end but here i couldnt figure out how this feeling could even stop how could i get feeling of my body back to me.
i remember at one point thinking i just have outlines of my body and there is nothing in it, however strangely at same time i could still my entire body vibrating and kinda breathing.
i remember looking up at the floor and instead of light bulb it was a eye with a creepy smile just moving and watching me slowly that just sent chills down my spine.
Eventually i went up to my friends and i told them this has to stop or i will die, it has to stop and i asked them to slap me hoping this will somehow kick me back in reality as i really couldn't handle it anymore. they refused to do that and they tried talking to me i was having hard time understanding them and answering as i wasn't really fully there to be honest but i remember they hugged me and we started dancing and hugging i dont know how else to call it but this managed to bring me back and from there i managed to get back in my head slowly and after that trip was fairly enjoyable.
This was the most terrifying feeling i have ever felt in my life i was seconds from calling ambulance.
Thank you for reading this i really do appricete , feel free to ask any questions if interested and thank you for any comments.
Sorry for not the best English
Also it was 2 grams.
Take care guys.