Im generally new to shrooms just got some called ghost what would be a good dose for someone who has never taken them or slight experience for something more chill or what should I expect any help would be appreciated!
Mostly 1 gram and a couple 2.5 grams and 3 gram. Two times was a tea.
I have done other things as well. I want to consume mushrooms to learn about myself but same time I just get nothing but anxious and paranoid when I do.
Ive done a lot of bad things in my past mostly due to alcohol and im not close to people, family friends, etc, so I pretty much have to trip alone. I have done a fair share of apologizing and working repaying where I can for my wrong doings etc but it always eats me up sober or not.
Ive tried set and settings getting the right music but everything makes me itch as in( if im inside i want to go outside, once im outside I need to be inside) ( listening to music I have to stop and be quiet when quiet I need to put tv on then off) Iget extremely uncomfortable and I cannot just find my breath and let go or surrender i cant.
I really want to learn to do this but I just want a good experience where I feel at calm and peace not constant sorrow and regret and world is sick and on and on.
Not sure if there will be info to truly help other than the same circle of messages, I guess im just hoping to read one comment that somehow helps me see an attempt a different method for better experience.
I appreciate you all and hope youre having a good one.
I have noticed that when I take a dose of psychedelic mushrooms my deepest insights come not in the maelstrom of the dramatic visuals and body load, but afterwards, in the calmness that comes afterwards, when seemingly the 'trip' has passed.
This to me seems like the most psychologically and spiritually useful phase. Are there ways that I can only or predominantly enter or create this type of state, this 'insightful period' without having to go through the dramatic phase?
To be clear, I am not talking about microdosing, which is a different thing entirely.
I think what I am asking is if this 'insightful phase' is a state that can be created in itself or it is only something that comes after higher doses?
I’m hoping someone here may have experienced something similar that can offer suggestions.
I took psilocybin 8 days ago during a very emotionally intense period involving someone I had become deeply attached to. I’m wondering if the mushrooms played a role in what happened afterward, or if this is more of a nervous system/trauma response, or both?
Here is the background: I met a man on a dating app in early May and quickly developed a very intense connection. We talked every day for a couple months, often for hours. There were phone calls, video calls, and a lot of emotional connection. When we spent more time together in person, my attraction grew, and also very emotionally activated because I liked him so much. I felt excited, nervous, vulnerable.
I’ve never taken a psychedelic before, but he has taken it often. It wasn’t a traditional “trip” for me. I mostly just felt more relaxed, it just took the anxious nervous edge off, similar to alcohol. He had told me that he was going to sleep over and so in my mind, I thought, even though I was scared to try psilocybin, I trusted that he would stay with me and keep me safe. I’m already a very anxiously attached kind of gal. Well right after being intimate together (for the first time ever), he told me that he was leaving, told me he needed to be in his own bed and that it wasn’t anything personal. I had told him that would be my worst fear, that he would leave after we would be intimate. I had a very intense emotional reaction, crying hysterically, panic, anger. I felt rejected and abandoned and deeply hurt, and a betrayal of trust when he left. I also haven’t heard from him since (it’s been a week).
I went to sleep, and when I woke up the next morning, it was like something had switched off in my emotional landscape. Since then, for 7 days now, I feel calm, but almost too calm, like nothing is reaching me and normal triggers don’t trigger me. I also feel disconnected from my sexuality. I can orgasm physically, but I feel zero pleasure or emotional sensation from it. I’ve lost my sexual desire, which is very unusual for me. My sleep, appetite, exercise, and other functioning are normal. It’s been 7 days and nothing has changed. I’m not on any medications.
The emotions that seem reduced are my high intensity reward/attachment states, and my sexual desire and pleasure system feel completely offline. I can “think” I’m excited but don’t *feel* it. Before this happened, I was a highly sensitive person with very big emotions, so this seems disturbing and concerning. Other emotions I don’t feel are a sense of longing, wanting something with my whole heart, that feeling of being pulled toward something, fear is gone, anxiety, anger, irritation, impatience, annoyed, embarrassment, shame, disappointment…all gone. The only 3 emotions I seem to feel are calm, I’ll laugh at something funny, and cry if something is very sad.
Has anyone experienced anything like this before? I’m not looking for medical advice, just experiences or perspectives from people who may have gone through something similar. I’m hoping my emotions come back because I really miss feeling alive and connected.
Whenever I shroom, as they wear off I get this feeling like hair on my head is getting into my mouth. Anyone else get this?
Hello! I am looking for advice from more seasoned psilocybin users on how you guys deal with anxiety during the come up? I’ve tripped 7 times, my largest dose being 5.5g of cubes, and I have yet to have trip that I did not enjoy. Despite this I get terrible anxiety during the come-up and I am terrified when I consume the mushrooms. If anyone feels the same way as I do and has some tips on how to manage it, I would greatly appreciate it!😁
I have ME/CFS. My understanding, both through reading, and through personal experience, is that this condition is the result of the brain proceeding a state of danger. Intellectually, I know this, but part of my brain does not know this emotionally. There are various ways of dealing with this, which I've had partial success with, that involves brain training, visualization, etc.
I'm wondering if the use of psilocybin may help me. I wondered if it would allow me to go deep into my mind and address feelings of not being safe.
Last time, I tried a smaller dose, not enough to really get deep enough, I don't think, and had some lasting unpleasant symptoms for a week or two. They were highly anxiety provoking. I'm concerned about this happening again, but some said that perhaps this is because I only unlocked the underlying problems, but did not fully resolve them.
Any ideas, thanks
Hello!
Mushies have a special reputation for being the gentle one of the classical psychedelics, though does this make for the best trips?
I imagine dosage makes all the difference, but have you found the soft nature of the mushroom to hinder a "breakthrough" experience, or not stand out particularly well to you?
Obviously not everyone has a positive experience with mushrooms. Which I would also love to hear about, like what exactly went wrong. Was it the environment? The mindset? Or the substance itself??
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Got some shroom chocolates from a friend and they’re so incredibly gross I can’t even eat a single piece without gagging and almost puking(need to eat at least 4-8 pieces for good trip).. any recommendations on what to eat them with or what to grind them into or something?
My experience with pan cyans. (Some of the strongest in the world)
I went to a weekend rave, I had planned to go with another person but they ditched out on me so I ended up going alone. The first night I had a great time, I didn't do any shrooms I just drank and enjoyed the night. I had met some people the first day but I was not officially a part of the group.
On the second day I had planned on taking shrooms, specifically 1.7 grams of pan cyans. Previous to this I had only done micro doses of chocolate bar shrooms which I guess was regular Psilocybin. One thing I learned about shrooms is that you should do them alone. Now, prior to me taking the shrooms this second day I was feeling slightly sick/nauseous but I figured I was going to be fine.
I arrived at the rave in my car in the parking area and I decided it was time, I took out the shrooms and I ate all 1.7g. along with this I drank a very large amount of water before entering the rave. Once I finished them I got out of my car and I left to get into the venue. This rave had 3 different stages so I decided to go sit in the stands of that largest rave and wait for the shrooms to kick in. Shortly after I arrived at the stands I started to feel the effects of the shrooms and I all the sudden needed to use the bathroom, so I got up and started walking to the porta potties and then the shrooms started to hit me pretty heavily, my vision was getting distorted and my heart rate was increasing and I started to feel really nauseous and sick. I made it the bathroom to attempt to urinate but I couldn't, and the clothes I was wearing began to overstimulate me so I stripped naked in the porta potty to attempt to urinate but I couldn't. Keep in mind this is the middle of summer in Texas, so shortly after I got naked I started to get really hot and I had to get out of there. At this point it's been about 15-20 minutes since I ate the shrooms. Once I got my clothes back on and walked back to the stands and I started to semi-panic because I realized I took way too high of a dosage so I thought I needed to throw up. I climbed all the way up to the top of the stands and I tried to throw up but I couldn't. At that point I almost started crying and was feeling very regretful. But I snapped out of that and needed to get out of the building because the music was also very intense for me. At this rave they had a section called the cool down area and I walked over there and there was a worker who was on a tricycle (ones that you move people on) and we made eye contact and I went over to him and asked him if he had ever done shrooms and he said yes. I explained my situation and said that I took way too high of a dosage and started to have a bad trip and he tried to keep me calm, I don't really remember much of our conversation. But I told him I needed to throw up and he took me on the bike and started riding around the venue, eventually we stopped next to one of his coworkers and that guy told me not to go to ems (there was a medical area there) and said they would kill my high. I told the guy again hey I need to throw up so he took me out of the venue entirely like the back side of the place and I got off the bike and tried to throw up but I couldn't. He said he had to go and I said no worries do what you need to do man. (Keep in mind at this point I am tripping heavily visually and my nausea is only getting worse. But I am still able to consciously communicate.) A few minutes after that guy left a couple walked by and I looked at them and they asked if I was okay and I said I am having a really bad shroom trip and the lady tried to console me but I just kept trying to throw up but I couldn't. After a while she needed to leave so I let her go. At this point I looked at my phone and one of the people I knew who were there asked if I had made it and I replied in a panicked state saying I needed him and I was having a bad trip, so I got myself together and headed back to where the guy drove me out of the rave from, there the security said I had to walk back to the entrance. So I kind of stood there and waited for my friend's response but I didn't get one. Eventually I started to walk back to the entrance, walking kind of helped me feel better but I absolutely couldn't look at anyone in the face because of the visual distortions I was experiencing. Soon I made my way close to the entrance and a security guard close to the ems tent saw me and could tell something was wrong and asked if I was okay and I forgot what I said but he offered me his seat, I sat down and he asked me if I needed ems and at this point I was starting to panic so I told him yes. So he went to get someone and I stood up and followed him. I followed him to the back of the ems tent and out came 3 people 2 females and 1 police officer. I first asked if this was going to cost me money lol, and the lady said no and they started to usher me into the tent. Before entering I said I had taken just shrooms nothing else and I was feeling very nauseous. Once I got into the tent there were probably 12 people a bunch of medical and a few police officers. Seeing this started to freak me out. One lady was yelling at me to go sit down at a spot. I walked in and said "shit, I'm in it now." and I started to fucking panic. When I say panic I mean internally I was freaking out but I was still able to speak calmly. It was freezing in the tent so I said to them "it is way too cold in here" so I walked out of the front entrance of the tent which led back into the rave venue. I walked alongside a fence and sat down in the grass. There i tried to collect my thoughts and calm down. I kept my eyes closed because the visuals I was experiencing was extremely intense. Everytime I looked up the ems people were staring at me and I thought I was being watched and I thought I was in trouble. Soon a guy who worked there walked up to me and asked if I was okay and I kind of explained my situation. The back of his shirt said mental health support or something and I noticed he had a supervisor badge on. I tried to have a normal conversation with him but anytime I got asked a personal question I shut it down because I didn't want to get in trouble. I asked more about him and he told me he used to work for the FBI and now he works at a homeless shelter helping people. In my mind I heard this and was like holy fuck I'm screwed and I started to panic, remember internally. Outwardly I was able to stay calm and talk. Eventually I called my friend who I was staying with who was at work at the time that I needed them to come get me. After this I told the guy that I'm going to have someone come get me and my car and I appreciated him. At this point it's been about 2 hours since I took the shrooms. I get up from where I was sitting and I go to the entrance of the venue and I leave and I find a spot in a field to wait for my friend to come get me.
I was far enough away from the entrance to where I wouldn't be in anyone's way but close enough to hear most of the people over there. In front of me was a tree so I just tried to ground myself there and wait for my friend who was about an hour away. I'm skipping details but at this point I think the shrooms were beginning to peak. I sat down, and kept fighting the feeling and the sickness. My mind was spinning. Shortly I was able to get my heart rate under control and sort of relax, I'm skipping so many details but it's hard to remember.
The following was my experience.
At one point of me there on the ground I started to experience time dialation. I would close my eyes look up and see someone walking in the distance, close my eyes again for about 5-10 minutes open my eyes and that person was in the exact same spot walking. It felt like I was stuck in this loop for 3 hours.
Along with this I also thought I was in 3 different places at once.
The first place or reality, which is what it felt like. I walked to my car and grabbed my handgun and killed myself then and there, to which I then "ascended" to somewhere else. It was all just shapes to me visually but it felt peaceful.
The second place I was at was where I was sitting, but I didn't know if I was there or not because of the time dialation.
The third place I was at was inside the rave. The best way I can explain this was I could hear the people behind me and I kept hearing "it's a party" " woohoo" on repeat like 1000 times. I also heard "wake up" and I imagined myself snapping out of my trance and dancing and people cheering me on.
With all this going on I said to myself "please if someone is looking at me tell me I'm safe" and nobody touched me so I realized where I was sitting was the real reality.
(Re-reading note, I was experiencing a heavy anxiety attack throughout this entire experience, I have since done these pan cyans again .25 grams and again had really bad anxiety attacks so I gave them away and as of now I won't be touching shrooms again)
Shortly after that an Asian guy come and sat right next to me and said "I saw you over here and I know your the only person who's going through what I am right now" and I told him "you don't know how much I needed you right now" I told him I took shrooms and I was out of my mind and he said he was on acid and he was so happy and started bouncing around. Then we sat in silence then started laughing. After awhile he said he needed to go inside the venue and I said I was very happy to meet him and told him to go enjoy his time. After awhile my friend found me and I was able to help her find my car and she took me back to her place. At this point the peak was over and I was able to come to my senses again, there's more to the story later but this is just what I wanted to share.
*Note
I was 24 at this time 6'5 200 pounds in great shape. I did not have the best childhood and I am a survivor of a school shooting. I carry a handgun because of my experiences, though I don't think I would ever kill myself the thought comes and goes. I should have been with someone when I took these shrooms, but I guess I got what I wanted. I don't think I ever want to go through that again. I think if I was in a different setting, not feeling sick and let my mind open up I would of had a better experience. But this is just mine. Maybe in the future, but not anytime soon.