SUDDENLY autistic....????
I've been trawling reddit for over a year, reading about autistic experiences even before I knew that was me, but I have NEVER seen anybody else say that they were suddenly hit with the tism tenfold. Am I really the only one? I always had strong interests, of course, but I wasn't obsessed like I am now, the sun was NOT always too bright, I was NOT deeply in love with, and enchanted by the colour green like I am now, and I could look people in the eye okay- sure I preferred not to push it, but it wasn't a huge drama like it is now. Just, hell, didn't this ever happen to anybody else ever? One day I actually stopped to look at leaves and said "eeeeeee", which I never, even wanted to before, it just came out! and I am absolutely certain that I wasn't suppressing the urge to say "eeee" before, I mean I liked leaves, but they weren't a big deal to me.
anyways, it seems to be aligned with reaching a stress tipping point, causing a dissociative episode (and "vagal shutdown") which is all new to me. the timeline is blurry though, not sure if it was consecutive. Importantly, the derealisation faded, so I no longer get the warm melty feeling when I look at sparkly things, but the rest remained, albeit less intense.
Has this been reported in the literature? I can't be a case study of one can I?