Didn’t realize how obviously autistic I appear until recording myself
I did not realize how obviously autistic i appeared until i started recording myself for social media posts. I got diagnosed in my late 30s and felt like I somehow overplayed my experience for the diagnosis. I’ve worked with a therapist for a year and still didn’t feel like “I’m autistic” felt part of my identity. I have imposter syndrome about being part of the autism community.
Ambiguous social situations are my kryptonite. I started trying to push myself to be more social both in-person and online. After watching back a few recordings, it’s painfully obvious. I think I’m sounding excited but my tone is flat, my eye contact is wrong, and my vibe is so awkward.
I don’t know what the point of me posting here is. I guess I’m looking to commiserate. Has this happened to anyone else? My social anxiety is now way worse 😔