u/RevolutionaryTurn211

hi all, i’m a long time lurker (21F) who knows she has a problem. i don’t really have anyone to vent to about this so i thought i’d come on here. i’ve been gaming my entire life - starting with pokémon as a kid, going onto minecraft in middle school, and then valorant for the majority of my college experience.

during high school i would game a lot and didn’t have any real goal or direction in my life, so i got mediocre grades and spent a majority of my free time playing CS. then i got to college and realize hey i really want to be a doctor.

so i balanced playing valorant for 8 hrs a day with maintaining my high GPA. now im about to graduate and i’ve been studying for the mcat

the only problem is i’ve been so stressed that all i do is game. any sort of difficult problem during studying ? video games. it didn’t help that STS2 released while i was supposed to study

my parents spent tons of money to help me do well on this exam, and now im shitting it away so i can play roguelikes til the sun goes down

i always thought that the real drain on me was multiplayer games but it turns out single player games get me as well. the thought of deleting my games fills me with sadness because it’s my comfort

any advice? i’ve deleted steam and all my games, but it’s so easy to redownload them and i get insane cravings whenever im not busy at school