What to do?
My best friend has just come back from her year-long mission trip, and I think I like her romantically. I don’t know what I should do because she goes to uni eight hours away im just two weeks.
I am 19 F, she is 19 F, and we have been inseparable since our parents met when we were three months old. as a kid i always had thoughts about kissing her, but I just dismissed it— I thought we were just best friends.
however, since she’s been away, I have been so angry and upset that she left. I am autistic, so I have overwhelmingly strong feelings, and I think this masked the feeling underneath. she got back yesterday, and I broke down crying that night because I realised how much I had missed her.
I spent this afternoon listening to worship music we used to listen to together and crying to God that I miss her, I love her, and I was so so worried for her safety the whole time. I told Him that whatever His plan is, I trust in it, and I reached out to my friend to see if she’d want to meet.
I don’t even know if she’s queer, and I don’t really know what to do in this situation because I am hopeless and oblivious when it comes to relationships. if any one has any advice, or has been here, please, I will willingly listen.