i think im in a abusive relationship
so me (F17) and my boyfriend (M18) have been dating for two months and he hits me really hard as a “joke” he says its a joke but it doesn’t feel like it. he also likes to comment on my weight as a “joke” and whenever i show any kind of reaction he’s always like “im jus kidding” mind you he says he’s also schizophrenic? and he didnt even tell me that right away he was schizophrenic i had to listen to him talk to my counselor and thats how i found out. this is my second real life relationship and i dont know what to do i can explain how he acts
so yesterday we were in the hallway and before our 3rd period class starts i have gym 2nd period and its from the basement to the 2nd FLOOR so i’m out of breath and obviously (not to mention im also overweight) so he comes and im out of breath and “he’s like why are you out of breath” dont really remember the exact words but then in the hallway as people are trying to get to class he screams “lose some weight!!” or something along those lines of my weight he does this twice and im extremely embarrassed because people are walking by and everyone can hear him because hes fucking yelling but whatever, i dont say anything because what can i say to him , he doesn’t listen when i say stop or anything so fast forward to my fourth period class were walking to my fourth period he literally smacks my tit so i hit him back because i let that slide for too long not tryna risk to break a nail so then he hits me harder so i hit him again and hes like i dare you to do it again and at this time his friend is like “you cant hit girls (his name) and basically says how he doesn’t care if i remember correctly and so were still in the hallway he hits me so hard on my shoulder it echos through the hallway and then i let out a scream and then his friend is like “you cant do that” then proceeds to say im his property and he can do whatever i go to class angry and pissed and sad and he sits nexts to me i dont say anything to him because like why would i yk then a couple minutes later he proceeds to put his arm over my shoulder and is like “i didnt mean to hit you that hard” and other stuff i dont remember because i was dissociating and i also had my headphone in my ear so i couldn’t really hear anyway then he lets go and doesn’t speak to me for the rest of the period and doesnt speak to me after class. then i start to blame myself for some reason im actually debating posting this but yeah
and of course we have our good moments they dont last long obviously but i think thats why i stay, any advice is appreciated :/