u/RipRepresentative974

Hi im a pisces man that has been dating a cancer women for about a month and a half. Everything was like a fairytale. Every morning calling eachother before work telling eachother goodmorning with a picture. Everything was PERFECT! We even told eachother we are soulmates and talking about moving in together,even having kids together. In such short time belive it or not we told eachother we love one another. So what happened was that I breached her trust because my sister in law (my brothers wife) we have a good relationship and wanted to know about how my relationship was going. She asked for a picture of us which I sent her. She said aww you guys look soo good and cute together. That she looks soo wholesome.She than made a comment about her looking innocent and not like a freak in bed. (I know i dont know why she even cares to know that) and me like an idiot responded to her saying oh no we have great chemistry in bed and that shes really good in bed. So my gf ended up seeing those messages. She broke up with me telling me that I broke her trust. I took accountability and told her im soo sorry that I should have never spoke about out privacy and that it would never happen again. So we were going back and forth messaging. (Me ofcourse trying to win her back and apologize and admit my faults) she told me why did i ruin everything??? all the plans we had. she said she was hurting alot.she than began to close off to the point where she told me to stop contacting her or she would block me. So I gave her the space she asked for. So at this point im not blocked and 35 hours go by and me still no contact. She than reached out to me through text telling to the erase the picture of us on my profile. But i was busy and wasnt able to look at the message for about 1 hr. So when i look i see that she blocked me. So 1 hr passes by and she calls me. We spoke for about 40 minutes (she was seeing me on video call) she admitted to me that monday morning (this past monday 2 days ago) that on her way to work her mind was so cloudy of thinking about me that she almost crashed. She also complimented the flowers i sent to her house. Like in a really soothing voice saying that she really liked them. She let me talk the conversation wasnt rushed,she wasnt looking to hang up. she also mentioned that we could possibly meet up for coffee soon.so during that call my phone had died and I was about to get out of work. So when I get home I charge my phone and than I call her which she didnt answer. Than I sent her a video message of me telling her hey my phone died I had to go to buy a new charger and to call me. She didnt call me back but she text me back. She hit me with " oh im sorry to hear thag about your charger but I hope everything goes well with you and that i hope you could heal but ALONE and she would do the same thing. And me like an idiot I panicked and told her to call me which she didnt so I ended up calling her which she didnt answer.so than I ended up texting her telling her that I would be waiting for her and praying to God to bring her back to me.Than I sent her a Bible verse about forgiveness proverbs 17:9 than she sent me a twxt saying that was a very nice verse and that she forgives me and doesnt hold a grudge with me and wants me to be better everyday. But than she sent me Bible verse which is proverbs 17:10 which is about learning from your mistakes. After that she blocked me. What do you guys think based on everything? Did i push her away for diving straight in again trying to get back together? Would she give me another chance? Did I lose her forever?⁹

Hi I writing this to vent and to hear people's opinions on this matter. So ive been dating a cancer women and im a pisces guy. We have dated for 1 month and everything was like a fairy tale. We even have told eachothe that we love eachother in such a short time. So this past weekend I went to visit her and we ended up going to a spot to eat. She gave me her phone and she went to the bathroom and me like an idiot decided to look through her phone. She ended up finding out that I did look through her phone. I found her talking to some guy from where she is from (colombia) I asked who's that and she says oh thats a friend we just talk about watches. So than I began to tell her that I dont talk to any girl "friends" and that why do you have to have a friend from the opposite sex. Than we just discuss it for a moment than I told her OK if you say thats your friend that I will respect it. Than we left the place and head to the movies and when I'm about to get some popcorn she asked for my phone. Than she proceeded to check my text messages which she found a conversation of me talking to my brothers wife. My brother's wife is like my sister she practically saw me grow up. She is a little nosy and asked to see a picture of me and my gf. Than she says aww you guys look soo good together she looks soo wholesome. But than she says something out of pocket which was "ohh she looks like is she wasnt a freak in bed. And me like a stupid ass I decided to comment on what she said and I said oh yeah shes good in bed we have great chemistry. Well she ended up reading those text messages and she got upst and walked out the movie theaters. I start chasing her and pleading to her. She says that is better for me to get a hotel. (Mind you i live in Miami and her in lake worth) so like 1 hr and a half from my house. Once she says that than I get a little panicked and start pleading with her to please not do this. Than she got in the car and drive away. She left me in the middle of the street at 10 pm at night with no where to go. I sent her a video of me crying and pleading to her to please come back and pick me up not to leave me. But she didnt care and never picked me up.The next day I told her to call me and she video chatted with me over the phone for 52 minutes. In that conversation I told her to please forgive me that I know I broke her trust for talking about our private life. That I shouldn't have been casually talking about us to her. I know I did wrong and im soo hurt right now. She told me she doesnt want to be with me because I broke her trust. But than she says jonathan im hurting soo much why did you ruin everything??? All the plans we have??? She says she loves me alot but that no. I feel soo helpless right now. She told me to stop writing to her or she would block me. Than I sent her the last voice message telling her to please dont do this please think about this. We have such a beautiful relationship please dont ruin what we have. I know I made a mistake and I will learn from this.Than I tell her that it hurts me soo much in my heart to tell you this but this would be the last message I sent you because I dont want you to block me I love you.Than 20 min later she text me saying to erase the profile picture of us on my whatsapp. So i read the message but i didnt click on it. So to her it looks like i never saw it. 30 min after she says that than she deleted that message of her telling me to erase the picture. Is that a good sign? So the last message I sent her and that was on Sat at 8:34 at night so its been over 24 hours that I havent reached out to her. She hasnt reached out to me neither. Im soo hurt inside I feel like I lost my soulmate. Any cancer women out there that could give me any advice? Is their any coming back from this? Do you think she would be able to forgive me?​