Has anyone gotten “lazy” after spiritual awakenings?
After a lot of suffering, dark nights of the soul, and years of inner work, I feel the most peaceful I’ve ever felt. I know there’s more growth ahead, more hard seasons, but right now, I’m genuinely at peace.
The strange part is I also feel lazier than I ever have.
I’m not in a rush. I have a career I’m passionate about, I run my own online business doing work I love, and yes, I could use more clients and income, but I don’t feel the push to make it happen. When I’m not with clients, I just follow whatever interests me: writing educational content, researching, slowly building a course. No urgency.
The weird thing is, I know more people would benefit from what I offer. I just… don’t feel moved to hustle for it.
Before my spiritual awakening, I was on fire, constantly setting new goals, creating content, chasing challenges, networking, always doing. Now that drive is just gone, and “lazy” is honestly the only word I can find for it.
Am I in my comfort zone? Definitely. Do I want to stay here forever? No. But there’s this quiet voice that says it’ll happen when it’s supposed to and I can’t tell if that’s genuine trust or just a story I’m telling myself to justify not pushing harder.
Anyone else been here? Is this integration, or is it stagnation dressed up as peace?