Focusing on just enjoying the game rather than improving?
I have a bit more than 2k hours, reached 20k premier, around level 6 on Faceit, mostly solo queue. Lately I feel like I’ve stagnated. It feels like my mind is more focused on fixing my mistakes/improving than enjoying the game. If I lose a duel in a comp, my mind hard focuses on my mistake (bad counter-strafe, flash etc.). I also get nervous when playing comp. Like I can’t trust my intuition and just enjoy the game. I’ve also changed my settings a lot to try to find my sweet spot. I play more dm, bots, spray, maps more than the game to try to fix that. I also follow the esport scene, I would say that I even watch more podcasts about it than the actual games. I love CS but I don’t know if I actually enjoyed the game or chased the high of improving which I don’t enjoy anymore. I’m just confused and at a crossroads, trying to find some direction.